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...making a vow today to become completely vegetarian, and soon vegan, to actually commit to keeping these small commitments i make. its astonishing to me what captures my attention for so long, and then not. like livejournal, for instance. something that i've had for, what...about 6 years now and i don't even post to it anymore. not that it makes me or breaks me but i think its nice to really capture your life, as it happens, to be able to come back to it whenever you want and recapture that moment, remembering what it felt like...that is nice. i miss it. but, as is usually the case, i allow so many other small things to get in my way and take up my time. or i just waste it, as i have of late. don't get me wrong, i have gotten some much needed rest from life lately and its nice but it tends to make me feel like less of a person for some reason if i'm not always "doing" or "going"...just what is that? how do you classify this longing to be doing too much all of the time? it makes no sense. there will be times to come in my life when i will look back on this time and CRAVE it again so badly, so there's no need to worry now. i need to just breathe and live...just breathe.