the clock is-a-tickeN

[janabanana08]

Since about jr high school, college has always been on my mind. which one am i going to go to? will any college accept me? will i get through all of the pain and torture it takes to get here....studyin non-stop, trying my hardest to make the grade, dedicating myself to enough extracurricular activites, volunteering for enough comunity service projects. all of that worrying and hard work has finally gotten me here...about 4 days before the big day, the day that i have been waiting for since the beginning of summer, since the beginning of high school, even since the beginning of middle school...i believe that i am ready...i know that i am ready....but i cant deny that i am scared shitless, nervous, and anxious and excited all at the same time.this is a big step..moving away from home after living in the same house my entire life, not being able to depend on my parents every minute of everyday. even the little stuff worries me, like wat if my computer starts malfunctioning and i have no idea how to take care of it..wat if i cant concentrate, wat if i get a bad grade, wat if i cant finish a paper on time...all of those fuckin worries cannot seem to make there way out of my head...and it seems like the only answer is extra strength tylenol and a little television therapy. but talkin about it helps, writting about it helps, reassuring myself that its all gonna be OK helps

i know college is going to be great..a real eye-opener, a time for me to become a true independent woman..its a big step, a venture out of my comfort zone..which let me tell u is wayyyy overdue..but its finally happeneing..good luck to all of you :)