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[jamz333]

I cannot believe that in a week from now, I will be at school. I am so nervous. I never thought this day would come so fast. I remember praying that it would come sooner, and now that it is so close, i am so scared. I'm scared for my future with mark. I love him with everything I have, and I know he loves me just the same. I know that in my heart I want to be with him. he is my best friend, and I would be so lost without him. I keep reassuring myself that 2 hours is not that far...but then again it is alot farther than 5 minutes. But i know that things will work out no matter what. If we're meant to be, we will be.
I hope that i do well in school. I am so anxious, yet so nervous because i do not know anyone that is going there. but that may be a good thing. I need to get out into the world and make a name for myself. I feel like i have always been precieved so wrong from a lot of people around me. now i have a clean slate. no one knows anything about me or what i've been through. it's time to experience new things, it's time to live. this little town is far too depressing and is a constant reminder of the good life that i used to have. I can't really complain about things right now, because it is not that bad, but it is just different. Those people who are supposed to care the most, tend not to. but thats the way life goes sometimes.

alright well i need to go to sleep

i hope i sell my car tomorrow