Oct 20, 2014 23:49
Here I am.
We made a pact -- actually, I made a pact and made you make it with me -- and if I say I will, then I will.
The social circle has dwindled... once upon a time it carried the label MAY CONTAIN NUTS, but now Contains: less than 2% of those who care, those who understand, those who listen. Attention spans are now nearly nil. The reality has set in of the internet's power to make anything undesirable live forever. I am wary of sharing my thoughts and stories and actions. Anything I have to say can and will be used against me... .
My thoughts stray daily to a level of potency not fit for human consumption. Like a hot sauce you can't eat, but must dissolve in a gallon of chili.
Distill, disperse, dilute. Disregard. Deny. Distract.
Distract.
Distract.
Distract.
Don't do the hard work; play this word game instead. Why write down what you feel; "reality" surrogates will manufacture and resolve it for you. Drown your troubles in cat videos and useless lists.
Fail to repair.
No. Repair the failure. Find the connection to who you were, who you still are. Don't defer the dream, develop it.
That's the goal.