Life..
Is just crazy sometimes. I hate it when I get worked up about everything. Because in the end it ALWAYS turns out fine, well for me anywho. I'm just waiting for that one time when I really screw something up and actually regret it. I've never regretted anything in my life, and I don't ever want to have to. I'm looking forward to summer, but in a sense I'm not. I love it up here sooo much. I love my friends here, they are none like any of my other friends. And being here means I'm not living in my house of hell. Sometimes I just wish people could see the way things really are in my life. I knoe I put up a good face and all, and I wouldn't do it any other way. It's just soemtimes I can't handle things. I wish someone could tell me the answers, but I knoe I'm the only one that can make any decision in MY life.
That was all just a big jumble, but it means a lot to me. I'm SO happy that I have Kaela here. I love it when we can just talk and she's always there, she's my best friend. But I miss Mindy and I hate being so far away from here for such a long time.
I need money so bad. I'll have a full time job this summer...but I still need more. I just keep paying for school w/ the money I don't have! Probably next summer I will live here so I can get a good job here and keep it til' the end of school or whatever.
Next year is going to be sad! It'll be so weird not having everyone around me! First I'm seperated from people at home and then people here are living in different places! Geeza! That just means that we'll have to have dinners together and have a crash spot for them!
Ok, well this was a pointless update for most people. But whatever.
I have to schedule for classes tomorrow good thing I got an appointment w/ my advisor today! Because I have seriously no clue what classes to take next year. See things like this..I wait til' the last minute, but I'm still gonna be okay. Sometimes I believe myself when I say I rock.
I am happy, because I knoe how to make myself happy.
That was all just a big jumble, but it means a lot to me. I'm SO happy that I have Kaela here. I love it when we can just talk and she's always there, she's my best friend. But I miss Mindy and I hate being so far away from here for such a long time.
I need money so bad. I'll have a full time job this summer...but I still need more. I just keep paying for school w/ the money I don't have! Probably next summer I will live here so I can get a good job here and keep it til' the end of school or whatever.
Next year is going to be sad! It'll be so weird not having everyone around me! First I'm seperated from people at home and then people here are living in different places! Geeza! That just means that we'll have to have dinners together and have a crash spot for them!
Ok, well this was a pointless update for most people. But whatever.
I have to schedule for classes tomorrow good thing I got an appointment w/ my advisor today! Because I have seriously no clue what classes to take next year. See things like this..I wait til' the last minute, but I'm still gonna be okay. Sometimes I believe myself when I say I rock.
I am happy, because I knoe how to make myself happy.