Fuck
I can't stand spending time at home.
I have a mother who loves to find every little thing I do wrong. And the worst part is, she doesn't scold me like I'm an adult... or even like she's an adult.
We had an argument about dinner tonight... lame I know... and she started pounding on the thawing chicken breasts and then threw them across the room while yelling at me. I thought i was the child here....
She complains about me not spending any time at home, but hell I can't stand being told I'm always doing something wrong.
I'd move out, but she happens to own my car and I know she'd take every little thing of mine that I didn't buy myself.
My mother has the hardest time accepting the fact that I'm 20 now and actually have the right to make decisions on my own.
Damn it! I don't want to tell her where I'm going or who I'm with! I don't have to answer to anyone in college while I'm there, why the hell does it change now that I'm here.
I am so thinking about moving out, but I just don't have the funds.
HELP ME!
I need refuge!
I need strength!
I need my mom to be sedated!
I am counting the days until school starts back up in the fall. I need to get a damn internship for next summer so I don't have to sit at home and take this shit.
When I turn 21... oh when I turn 21. I'm gonna piss her off so much.
I'll have a beer with dinner... go out to the bar, come home drunk off my ass.
I've stopped drinking to get drunk, I really don't drink much at all anymore, but I'd do it just to get under her skin.
Doesn't that sound horrible? She drives me to these thoughts.
I want to have a good relationship with my mom. I want to talk about things and ask for advice, but I can't get a neutral answer from her. Asking for advice always gets me yelled at for doing something wrong. I just want her to chill out.
I JUST WANT MY OWN LIFE!!!!
I love my mom, and her and my step-dad have done many wonderful things for me. They've bought me a new car, they pay my car insurance, they pay my cell phone bill, they pay my credit card bill, they pay mostly for my college, they pay for my gas, they support my goals lovingly... but at the same time... all this financing gives them a fair amount of control over my life.
At this point, I'd be willing to pay for it all if just to have control of my life.
I just keep telling myself that so many others aren't as fortunate as me. God Bless 'em...
I have a mother who loves to find every little thing I do wrong. And the worst part is, she doesn't scold me like I'm an adult... or even like she's an adult.
We had an argument about dinner tonight... lame I know... and she started pounding on the thawing chicken breasts and then threw them across the room while yelling at me. I thought i was the child here....
She complains about me not spending any time at home, but hell I can't stand being told I'm always doing something wrong.
I'd move out, but she happens to own my car and I know she'd take every little thing of mine that I didn't buy myself.
My mother has the hardest time accepting the fact that I'm 20 now and actually have the right to make decisions on my own.
Damn it! I don't want to tell her where I'm going or who I'm with! I don't have to answer to anyone in college while I'm there, why the hell does it change now that I'm here.
I am so thinking about moving out, but I just don't have the funds.
HELP ME!
I need refuge!
I need strength!
I need my mom to be sedated!
I am counting the days until school starts back up in the fall. I need to get a damn internship for next summer so I don't have to sit at home and take this shit.
When I turn 21... oh when I turn 21. I'm gonna piss her off so much.
I'll have a beer with dinner... go out to the bar, come home drunk off my ass.
I've stopped drinking to get drunk, I really don't drink much at all anymore, but I'd do it just to get under her skin.
Doesn't that sound horrible? She drives me to these thoughts.
I want to have a good relationship with my mom. I want to talk about things and ask for advice, but I can't get a neutral answer from her. Asking for advice always gets me yelled at for doing something wrong. I just want her to chill out.
I JUST WANT MY OWN LIFE!!!!
I love my mom, and her and my step-dad have done many wonderful things for me. They've bought me a new car, they pay my car insurance, they pay my cell phone bill, they pay my credit card bill, they pay mostly for my college, they pay for my gas, they support my goals lovingly... but at the same time... all this financing gives them a fair amount of control over my life.
At this point, I'd be willing to pay for it all if just to have control of my life.
I just keep telling myself that so many others aren't as fortunate as me. God Bless 'em...