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Whare Flat Fok Festival was absolutely amazing! Perfect way to spend those 4 days over new years. Lots of rain but a happy time, and tons of good music..even a coffee machine! Doi and I had a chance to relax for the first time in ages. That in itself was worth being there for. Now it is back to full-on.
Have just had visitors from Australia stay at home, Kalar and Brett, great to see old Dharma buddies, plus before them a couple of the Jigzag (also from Aussie) players from the festival - lovely people, kids loved it and are playing the cd's non-stop! Very good positive and skilled music. Starting to feel more like myself, and the way i used to live in my home here...bit by bit...
have started up teaching Qigong classes again, my body stiffens if I don't do the exercises for a while, but immediately responds, no pain..just unblocking the flow again, it is never as bad as the first time you go through it! In fact, it just melts as you apply your mind calmly.
Won't get to my friend Nikki's wedding on Waiheke by the looks - school will be starting for the kids, and its so much money. Maybe maybe.. would be good to be there, we are antique friends! and be lovely to get a taste of up north.
Currently have been investigating every small thing that Doi spots me doing, looking at it from his perception, which at times is accurate to some degree, and sometimes not. Time for me to just be again, have faith in my heart, instead of over-willing to be everything for everyone with limited energy and capacity...I am not yet capable of that but will keep working on it! I hope he has the strength to prservere! me too. hells, i know i do. I have been through enough, its a case of letting go into love a bit more. I feel sad to not know what to do all of the time, but know how much I love, so will just have to hold faith, keep open..
Have just had visitors from Australia stay at home, Kalar and Brett, great to see old Dharma buddies, plus before them a couple of the Jigzag (also from Aussie) players from the festival - lovely people, kids loved it and are playing the cd's non-stop! Very good positive and skilled music. Starting to feel more like myself, and the way i used to live in my home here...bit by bit...
have started up teaching Qigong classes again, my body stiffens if I don't do the exercises for a while, but immediately responds, no pain..just unblocking the flow again, it is never as bad as the first time you go through it! In fact, it just melts as you apply your mind calmly.
Won't get to my friend Nikki's wedding on Waiheke by the looks - school will be starting for the kids, and its so much money. Maybe maybe.. would be good to be there, we are antique friends! and be lovely to get a taste of up north.
Currently have been investigating every small thing that Doi spots me doing, looking at it from his perception, which at times is accurate to some degree, and sometimes not. Time for me to just be again, have faith in my heart, instead of over-willing to be everything for everyone with limited energy and capacity...I am not yet capable of that but will keep working on it! I hope he has the strength to prservere! me too. hells, i know i do. I have been through enough, its a case of letting go into love a bit more. I feel sad to not know what to do all of the time, but know how much I love, so will just have to hold faith, keep open..