the drama summer is here and had begun
wow long time no lj? haha that sounds like the beginning of every entry for the past.. uh long time? ha. so much has went on since last time i wrote in here. brad had to go to court tuesday and got sent off to JCDC (Johnson City Detention Center) for 2 days. He will be one house arrest for 30 days, probation extended 6 more months, 20 hours community service, can't talk to anyone except family for a week after he gets out of JCDC and has to get a job within 30 days. okay but today i found out he had cheated on me about 2-3 months with my friend, no i lied, she is not my friend.. anymore. and me and brad have been dating for 6 months.. so it's completely over now. i am thinking of how i am going to leave him. i loved him to death. i have liked his best friend Brooks since before me and brad started dating, and he is so amazing it makes me want to commit suicide-- the second person that gives me butterflies <33333 i am so 3 seconds away from being in love with him and .. i finally told him tonight. i have waited 6 motnhs to let that out. 6 months=extremely long time to hold in those feelings, it feels good. oh well shit happens hopefully for a reason
because brad is going nowhere in life
in 10 years i see him living in a shithole lifeless trailor holding a beer in his right hand, with a beer belly, watching the simpsons. the end
or in a woodridge for being psycho
that is not what i want
that is not what i need
wtf who the fuck would?!?!
ha i can't sleep at all
and it's 4:16, four minutes away from 4:20 O_o
and i think brooks is coming over tomorrow and i am excited i just want to jump in circles.
my heart is so broken but it's okay because i am strong and i know that i need to move on
and my friends and sister have been trying to convince me for at least 4 months that brad is a really bad person and i deserve better.. fuck yeah i do.. we all know it
now i am just sitting here typing away while i listen to the rocket summer, foreverDOWN, the spill canvas, and the starting line.
samantha, her boyfriend, her brother stevie and little sister meghan are downstairs sleeping.
we all went to the mall today, then to hooters
saw some friends from greenville
wow perfect song for the way i feel about brooks
the spill canvas- so much
here are the lyrics
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down
Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me
Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home
If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face
How does it feel?
kay that's it.
ohio was amazing
i miss you guys so much
and so sorry for all of you who i didn't get a chance to see.
i love you guys so much
i want to come back so bad
and life here sucks
i miss my friends
i bet you noticed the 5430 typos. guess what i don't care and you shouldn't either
i am staying up the rest of the night
i love you sweetiefaces
kthxbye
<3xforever
jada
because brad is going nowhere in life
in 10 years i see him living in a shithole lifeless trailor holding a beer in his right hand, with a beer belly, watching the simpsons. the end
or in a woodridge for being psycho
that is not what i want
that is not what i need
wtf who the fuck would?!?!
ha i can't sleep at all
and it's 4:16, four minutes away from 4:20 O_o
and i think brooks is coming over tomorrow and i am excited i just want to jump in circles.
my heart is so broken but it's okay because i am strong and i know that i need to move on
and my friends and sister have been trying to convince me for at least 4 months that brad is a really bad person and i deserve better.. fuck yeah i do.. we all know it
now i am just sitting here typing away while i listen to the rocket summer, foreverDOWN, the spill canvas, and the starting line.
samantha, her boyfriend, her brother stevie and little sister meghan are downstairs sleeping.
we all went to the mall today, then to hooters
saw some friends from greenville
wow perfect song for the way i feel about brooks
the spill canvas- so much
here are the lyrics
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down
Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me
Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home
If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face
How does it feel?
kay that's it.
ohio was amazing
i miss you guys so much
and so sorry for all of you who i didn't get a chance to see.
i love you guys so much
i want to come back so bad
and life here sucks
i miss my friends
i bet you noticed the 5430 typos. guess what i don't care and you shouldn't either
i am staying up the rest of the night
i love you sweetiefaces
kthxbye
<3xforever
jada