Late night blues
I've noticed for a while now that when I stay up late--after 12--I usually get some minor to mild depression. It's usually the case that I sleep after 12. I'll wikipedia this later to find out why.
Today, I've been telling myself for the last couple of hours that I should sleep. I haven't because I want to talk to someone, or want to get out of this mood before I get to sleep. I sometimes wish I had something insightful or heartwarming.
I think it is due, in part, to loneliness. I didn't feel this way as much when I was up late in China but back then my girlfriend was waiting for me (asleep) in bed. When I held her before falling asleep myself, I'd usually forget about these feelings. I'm not sure where to draw the line on this--whether I'm too emotionally dependent or whether no company will do the same to others. It's usually in these times that I write my most pensive journal entries and when I really wish to have good social relationships. Some good does come out of it in those forms, though.
Today, I've been telling myself for the last couple of hours that I should sleep. I haven't because I want to talk to someone, or want to get out of this mood before I get to sleep. I sometimes wish I had something insightful or heartwarming.
I think it is due, in part, to loneliness. I didn't feel this way as much when I was up late in China but back then my girlfriend was waiting for me (asleep) in bed. When I held her before falling asleep myself, I'd usually forget about these feelings. I'm not sure where to draw the line on this--whether I'm too emotionally dependent or whether no company will do the same to others. It's usually in these times that I write my most pensive journal entries and when I really wish to have good social relationships. Some good does come out of it in those forms, though.