Feb 06, 2004 21:38
bawling my eyes out. i would have given anything to stay one more night with genaro. just long enough for mike to get off to work in the morning and i wouldn't have to see him. i hate my mother's boyfriend so much. i'm just . . . scared. i feel so small.
but i couldn't stay. i had to go so genaro and nicole could hang out cuz she doesn't like being with us together. she says we exclude her.
so i am crying here alone and i feel like someone is on top of me, pressing on my chest. they are determined to keep pressing until i stop breathing.