A Change...

[jammylush]

I don't know how to start this entry, so I'll just jump into it. My life is hard, there is no doubt about it. It is hard for me to deal with a lot of the things that happen in it, but I have to. I'm not saying I have the hardest life out there, because I know I don't. There are a lot of people who have it a lot worse than I do, but that still doesn't make my life any easier. I think part of the reason life is so hard is because we try to see everything in black and white, right and wrong, yes or no. I can't do that anymore. It is too much stress. I have decided to just life my life the only way I can, by dealing with one thing at a time and getting through it by doing what makes me happy and living without regrets. I know that sounds a lot easier than it is to do, but if I don't at least try to live this way, what is the point of even living. Because of this change in my philosophy on life, I have decided to create a new journal. My LJ username will be "vaille que vaille" - "come what may" in French. That is about all I have to say here, I will say more in my first entry of my new journal...

There is one more thing that I want to end here. Trish and I aren't talking anymore. I put myself through so much stress to try and make things right with her that I had to say enough and give up on my relationship with her.

Also, work is fucking me over. I gave my two weeks notice at "Friends and Family", but Stockade Billiards is pushing back the opening date so I will be out of work for two weeks... oh goodie.