Day 20 and a dilema
day 20 → a hobby of yours
I like to sing and draw... watch Jdramas... listen to music
I just got great-ish news today. Earlier I was informed that the position that I am in will not be one of the jobs opening up for new hiring (since we got all that grant money and such) BUT the school I am at has been working for the past 2 days trying to pull some strings to get me as a permanent Aide. Today I was informed that they were successful and I will be hired sometime next week after I complete some paperwork! This means a raise, insurance, benefits, paid vacation time, and a steady job. I was having second thoughts today about even going to the disney audition! I mean they worked so hard to get me this job. I dont even have a for sure way to get to my audition, it's going to cost and arm and a led to get there, and I don't even know if I will make it! They could just laugh in my face and tell me to go home...
But I sat down and thought about it, I have been think non stop about it for a long time but I really thought about what if I don't go? I would never know... What if I am exactly what they want and I didn't go and now am stuck as a teacher in the US the rest of my life? I dont want that... even if I fail and waste the money at least I tried right? Plus I'm getting a raise so I'll make the money back. The problem lies in if I do get accepted what am I going to tell the people that just worked so hard to get me my job? What if I do only end up working at Disney for 6 months and have to come back? I hate having things be so unsure!!!
On a happy note I just heard Massu sing the Doraemon song and it was cuteness overload! It sounded like he would be singing that to our children!
I like to sing and draw... watch Jdramas... listen to music
I just got great-ish news today. Earlier I was informed that the position that I am in will not be one of the jobs opening up for new hiring (since we got all that grant money and such) BUT the school I am at has been working for the past 2 days trying to pull some strings to get me as a permanent Aide. Today I was informed that they were successful and I will be hired sometime next week after I complete some paperwork! This means a raise, insurance, benefits, paid vacation time, and a steady job. I was having second thoughts today about even going to the disney audition! I mean they worked so hard to get me this job. I dont even have a for sure way to get to my audition, it's going to cost and arm and a led to get there, and I don't even know if I will make it! They could just laugh in my face and tell me to go home...
But I sat down and thought about it, I have been think non stop about it for a long time but I really thought about what if I don't go? I would never know... What if I am exactly what they want and I didn't go and now am stuck as a teacher in the US the rest of my life? I dont want that... even if I fail and waste the money at least I tried right? Plus I'm getting a raise so I'll make the money back. The problem lies in if I do get accepted what am I going to tell the people that just worked so hard to get me my job? What if I do only end up working at Disney for 6 months and have to come back? I hate having things be so unsure!!!
On a happy note I just heard Massu sing the Doraemon song and it was cuteness overload! It sounded like he would be singing that to our children!