Thoughts, Feelings, and Such
It's amazing where your mind wanders when you are left all alone with yourself. I don't know about everyone else...but I tend to think of some very interesting things. Some of these things can make me laugh...others drive me to tears. I know that when I'm alone wtih my thoughts I tend to think about my life, what I've done with it, what I could be doing with it, my friends, how I've treated them, how I could be a better friend, how they have hurt me, the great times I've had with them. But the thought, well I guess it could be more called a feeling, that I tend to get when I'm left alone with myself is lonliness. I honestly don't know why I feel this way either. I have SOOOO many people in my life that love me to no end and I know that deep down, but there is still something that makes me feel like I'm all alone. I HATE feeling that way. It feels like there is a hole in my heart....and I just feel empty and alone....I really need to work on this! I have the BEST friends anyone could ever ask for. They would, and have done anything for me! I know that they know that I love them to death and that I would do anything for them, but sometimes I get the feeling that I may push them away sometimes when that is NOT what I mean to do....I need to learn how to control my emotions and not unleash them on my friends when there is NO need for it at all! Wow, so this journal just kind of went it's own direction. I just needed to get this all out. It feels good to get things out sometimes! Other then all of this I'm having a really really good summer! I hope that everyone is having a great summer themselves!