Down in the dumps
This week is not really the best one....nor is it the worst. But it is a rollercoaster ride that I would willingly step out of. It was only Wednesday that I commented the people on my YM list that had 'emo' status messages. And now, I am the one with the damned 'emo' status. The trust issues are coming back. But now, I'm not getting angry or irritated by it at all. Instead, I feel very low. I am actually in deep thought and asking myself if maybe...just maybe...I did something hurtful or unpleasant to them to make them back away and stop being open to me. I can't force them if they don't want to....but I'm wondering why they suddenly stopped reaching out to me. It hurts and I don't think they know it. And even if they read this, I don't think they would know I'm pertaining to them. Hai........it sucks but I need to understand that things change and I can't always be the one people can talk to.