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Have you ever felt like you just don't belong any where? Like you have and no1 there to talk to? Im just so confused right now. I have to bitch some where.. so it goes here. friends/boyfriend/family.. Its all so confusing right now. I feel like i've cried for every single person i've met.. how gay is that.. Im so stupid.. and theres some ppl i just really hate but i cant hate them cuz their friends with my boyfriend and thats not very nice of me but i cant help it.. their jerks, idk if its to everyone but I'm sure their jerks to me. They say the meanest things.. and its kills me like what the fuck did i ever do? Nothing. They dont even no me at all. I havent talk to brad all day, he didn't call so i just went to the game. I mean i had fun but i thought about him alot because I do that all the time cuz im stupid. When he probally didnt even think about me once. what am i suppost to think about us? I love him and i cant see my life without him, but im a bad girlfriend, i tell him to shut up and i hit him.. I really am horrible and i relized that last time me and brad talked online. I really dont deserve him and maybe he relized that. :/ i can't deal with all this, and i have so much shit for new york and all that and im stressed and I feel like i have NO friends and i feel like i might be losing a boyfriend and if thats the case then i really do suck at everything.
but today was good. and i feel like allison's a real friend, shes always there.. and im glad i have her to listen AND TO TALK TO ME. She always makes me laugh and puts a smile on my face and I def. trust her with alot of secrets that no1 knows because they cant keep their mouths shut.
but today was good. and i feel like allison's a real friend, shes always there.. and im glad i have her to listen AND TO TALK TO ME. She always makes me laugh and puts a smile on my face and I def. trust her with alot of secrets that no1 knows because they cant keep their mouths shut.