4 months

Oct 11, 2005 19:05

so it may not seem like a lot but to me it feels like its been a really long time. four months with the same guy that hasnt dicked me over once and truly loves me? it seems amazing and unreal but im pretty sure its all right this time around. im finally happy. i mean i was happy before but in a way where i was always doubtful inside and kinda always knew things were going to change. but now im happy and i know deep down inside the future is gonna work out okay no matter what ends up happening with us. it makes me feel really good.

i mean, i dont like getting into old things, but i was looking through past entries of mine and it was all about how much i loved steve and i think about it really and ive figured everything out (i really figured this out a long time ago but w/e..). steve and i settled on eachother. he wanted erin and i wanted brice and we just settled on eachother and convinced ourselves we were "in love" which we werent. but now theres no settling. theres no convincing myself that i actually love brice. its that i love him more than anything no matter what and i always will and thats an amazing feeling.

i love you baby.
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