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alots gone on since i last updated... for one, and im sure most of you know, im pregnant. pretty crazy huh?
i never thought id get pregnant until i was married with a house, or atleast that was what i was planning on happening. but some things just dont work out the way we plan them.
it's pretty much turned my life and nicks upside down.
honestly at first i didnt know if this was something i wanted to go through with. there's alot you have to consider when bringing a child into the world. but the more time that went by, the more people i talked to, the more i wanted to go through with it. it was a really difficult decision and some people dont think i made the right one, but in the end i had to make the decision for me. if i couldnt go through with ending the pregnancy then it just couldnt happen.
so now nick and i are living at our parents houses, which is a really really difficult thing. its so hard going from living together for so long, to not seeing each other all the time and going to bed alone. it doesnt make this easy... and sometimes i question whether or not im doing the right thing, but i just keep telling myself the most important thing right now is to save as much money as we can for the baby. and hopefully it will just be a few more months before we can get our lives back on track and into a place of our own again.
valentines day i find out for sure if this little thing is definately a girl, and if she is then im going to call her colette reese.
soooo, thats where im at right now.
alittle scared, alittle nervous, but very excited.
i never thought id get pregnant until i was married with a house, or atleast that was what i was planning on happening. but some things just dont work out the way we plan them.
it's pretty much turned my life and nicks upside down.
honestly at first i didnt know if this was something i wanted to go through with. there's alot you have to consider when bringing a child into the world. but the more time that went by, the more people i talked to, the more i wanted to go through with it. it was a really difficult decision and some people dont think i made the right one, but in the end i had to make the decision for me. if i couldnt go through with ending the pregnancy then it just couldnt happen.
so now nick and i are living at our parents houses, which is a really really difficult thing. its so hard going from living together for so long, to not seeing each other all the time and going to bed alone. it doesnt make this easy... and sometimes i question whether or not im doing the right thing, but i just keep telling myself the most important thing right now is to save as much money as we can for the baby. and hopefully it will just be a few more months before we can get our lives back on track and into a place of our own again.
valentines day i find out for sure if this little thing is definately a girl, and if she is then im going to call her colette reese.
soooo, thats where im at right now.
alittle scared, alittle nervous, but very excited.