the weight of the world.
today is going to be the worst day ever.
nick is staying with that girl from florida. i had nightmares about it lastnight.
and i cant stop thinking about all the shit that happened and him being with her and its driving me insane.
i feel like him being there today is just making me seem like an asshole. i feel like its like him saying to her
oh yah my gfs a nutcase, and all that mean shit you said about her... i dont care, bc i dont have any respect for her and its ok if you dont either.
i want to be mad at nick, but things have been getting so much better lately, i know if i do... then itll be back to how things were before he left, and thats the last thing i want.
but dont i have a right to feel the way i do?
i feel like its completely unfair for me to have to hold in my feelings all day bc he doesnt want to deal with it.
ugh i want to punch lotsa holes in the walls!!
well anyway, i bought hydroxycut lastnight at gnc and im gonna start taking them today.
that should definately ensure that i loose the lbs. i just hate getting on the scale after three weeks of eating right and working hard on going to the gym 3-4 times a week and not really seeing any difference.
its going to be the best thing in the world to see my weight down to where it was when i was in highschool, and not wanting to kill myself everytime i go shopping for jeans!
nick is staying with that girl from florida. i had nightmares about it lastnight.
and i cant stop thinking about all the shit that happened and him being with her and its driving me insane.
i feel like him being there today is just making me seem like an asshole. i feel like its like him saying to her
oh yah my gfs a nutcase, and all that mean shit you said about her... i dont care, bc i dont have any respect for her and its ok if you dont either.
i want to be mad at nick, but things have been getting so much better lately, i know if i do... then itll be back to how things were before he left, and thats the last thing i want.
but dont i have a right to feel the way i do?
i feel like its completely unfair for me to have to hold in my feelings all day bc he doesnt want to deal with it.
ugh i want to punch lotsa holes in the walls!!
well anyway, i bought hydroxycut lastnight at gnc and im gonna start taking them today.
that should definately ensure that i loose the lbs. i just hate getting on the scale after three weeks of eating right and working hard on going to the gym 3-4 times a week and not really seeing any difference.
its going to be the best thing in the world to see my weight down to where it was when i was in highschool, and not wanting to kill myself everytime i go shopping for jeans!