take me back to the start.
so nick leaves for tour today and i cant help but feel not good about it.
i just feel like our relationship has gotten so distant lately.
nothing is the same as it used to be and i really dont even know why or how it became that way.
and i hate that im the only one that is upset by it and wants to work to make things better.
it just seems like whenever i bring it up, we just fight about it, which in turn makes things worse... so at this point im trying to just ignore them, in hopes he'll come to the realization that he needs to put in alittle effort too to make this work.
bc it cant work if everything is so one sided.
plus it really bothers me that he is going to be staying with those girls from florida.
i dont even know... the more i think about it the more pissed off and upset i get.
hopefully i can just spend the next two weeks with my friends, so i can get my mind off of all the shit thats been going on.
i need an escape.
i just feel like our relationship has gotten so distant lately.
nothing is the same as it used to be and i really dont even know why or how it became that way.
and i hate that im the only one that is upset by it and wants to work to make things better.
it just seems like whenever i bring it up, we just fight about it, which in turn makes things worse... so at this point im trying to just ignore them, in hopes he'll come to the realization that he needs to put in alittle effort too to make this work.
bc it cant work if everything is so one sided.
plus it really bothers me that he is going to be staying with those girls from florida.
i dont even know... the more i think about it the more pissed off and upset i get.
hopefully i can just spend the next two weeks with my friends, so i can get my mind off of all the shit thats been going on.
i need an escape.