what am i doing?
So here i sit in my parents home - babysitting an 11 yr old who is crazy- Oh well- I feel like I have no contact with the outside world sometimes. I dont do anything. I work about 9hrs a week making $25/hr- And Dominick, who has moved down here to Texas from Massachusets to be with me is working at Hooters as a cook every night making $8/hr- We pay our bills, buy pot, groceries,gas,cigs. And ocassionaly go to dinner and a movie- Other than that I freaking sleep till noon, smoke- walk around my apartment complex in shitty conroe texas, and have been watching way to many movies lately on my couch. I feel dead inside- Its not like I think that stopping going to school was my downfall- Its just that I have a very bad problem with just cutting people out of my life- I barely have any "true" friends- the only people i truly trust is family-I have no idea why that is- but i do know that it makes for a very lonely life- i dont think im depressed- just lazy, bored, and sloth like- I wish that I could actually do something- other than just teach dance- mabye just something locally in houston- oh wait thats my other problem- the car that i bought for myself when i got home from the pillow this summer is a stick shift- and i cannot drive it- for some reason i am scared to death of that car- it is a complete piece of shit- and i cant go anywhere on my own- Dominick has to chauffer me everywhere- i have been working out though- i want to audition- I want to dance- I want to do something- I need a life- jtm