Why?
...Why is it that no matter how many times people tell me I'm thier friend, it always seems like they don't really mean it? I'm really asking. Why? Why is it that everyone seems to just be playing the part of my friend? Most of the people I'm 'friends' with probably don't even concider me as a friend at all. I'm thier 'friends sister'. Yea. I'm the tag along girl. I sorta get that "Do you want to come?" thing from my sister. I mean, I don't expect them to call me and be like "Do you want to hang out without Amanda?". Cause, I understand that they're better friends with her. It's just...I wish maybe once someone would call and ask if both of us wanted to go. It's the stupidest shit like that that urks me. I'm not mad but it just frustrates me. It dosn't help that I have the worst track record of friends in the WORLD. I mean, until like, last year, I never had true friends. ((This is not including online friends.)) I'm probably reading way too far into this. They probably don't even consider me a 'friend' but just, like stated before, thier 'friends sister'. My mom keeps telling me to go out and get friends phone numbers and hang out with them. Yea, cause we all know how well that turns out. They never call me back, I call them, that have 'plans', I find out thier 'plans' consisted of them hanging out with other friends that they called like...right as I hung up. Or, they give me false numbers, as I wrote about before. Or, they use me when they don't have anyone else to hang out with. I'm not being overdramatic about these things, because they've actually happened more then one time. It's not like I can just walk up to someone and be like "Hi! My name's Kristin, what's yours?". They'd probably just laugh at me and walk away. Everyone in my grade, except for a few exceptions are complete fuckwads.
..I have to stop repeating myself with this stupid question. Anyone else wanna give it a shot?
..I have to stop repeating myself with this stupid question. Anyone else wanna give it a shot?