I'm alright I'm gonna make it even if I gotta fake...
I need someone to tell me exactly how I did on my band test today, because I mentally do this thing when I get in front of people, I get so scared nervous whatever, that I black it out and it's all a blurr.. I know it's werid I've been doing it for a long time.. I remember her calling my name, and I remember being okay playing cromatic untill I hit B natural and I squeaked or it went out of tune or something.. and then I remember looking up and she was looking and me and from there it got blurry and my head started to hurt.. I know I finished it though because I remember Stephanie commenting on how I was shaking really bad. I wish I wasen't so scared of being in front of people.
Then after 1st hour was over.. I took a math test.. and I think I did pretty good on that. But, I thought I did good on my science test and I got a 67 go figure.. Whatever. Then when channel one was on I decided I "had to go to the bathroom" so I left and I saw Chrissy in the hall and we walked and talked for like 10-15 mins and then I went back to class for the last 10 mins or whatever.
The light was really bothering my eyes and head today in school. I don't know if it had anything to do with 1st hours little episode, but my head hurt a lot today.
4th hour we had a sub and she was an idiot, Jinelle came and sat by me, cause Stephanie wouldn't.. so Jinelle and I chatted about how stupid the sub was and about the paper we had to write and it was grand. Jinelles a cool kid.. I wish we sat by each other.. cause my side of the room is boring when Rachel isn't there.
After school I went to tutoring and it was kinda fun, I actually understood it cause my teacher was the one that was helping with Science instead of some other teacher that doesn't teach ADV PHY SCI.. so it was a lot better I actually get it.
So, yesturday I went to Stephanie's house to practice for our band test, and I didn't tell my mom or leave her a note or anything.. So, she called my phone and asked if I had a ride home, and bitched at me for not telling her I was leaving.. Then I asked if she could give me a ride home, and she went off on how it was my dad's day and then she shouldn't have to do anything. Well it pisses me off that my dad does everything and she doesn't do anything.. So, I hung up on her and turned my phone off so I wouldn't have to talk to her. As I suspected when I checked my phone 2 hours later she had left messages on there, saying if I didn't call her back in 10 mins she would choke me (not litterally as she explained later on) and another one saying if I didn't call her back in 10 mins I was grounded and unable to do anything for the rest of this week.. I think I'm grounded now.
When I got home, she tried to have this talk with me that was extremley pointless because I am not talking to her, when everything I say she says is wrong of invaild or something like that. She said that I was an angry person and that I don't communicate well with her, duh I don't want to talk to you. If I talk to you, you yell at me. And of course she always has to ask why do you hate me?.. Obvious reasons.. but she just doesn't see it. There was more to the talk but this is getting long.. it ended in her going out again! And me going to bed or what have you.
Then after 1st hour was over.. I took a math test.. and I think I did pretty good on that. But, I thought I did good on my science test and I got a 67 go figure.. Whatever. Then when channel one was on I decided I "had to go to the bathroom" so I left and I saw Chrissy in the hall and we walked and talked for like 10-15 mins and then I went back to class for the last 10 mins or whatever.
The light was really bothering my eyes and head today in school. I don't know if it had anything to do with 1st hours little episode, but my head hurt a lot today.
4th hour we had a sub and she was an idiot, Jinelle came and sat by me, cause Stephanie wouldn't.. so Jinelle and I chatted about how stupid the sub was and about the paper we had to write and it was grand. Jinelles a cool kid.. I wish we sat by each other.. cause my side of the room is boring when Rachel isn't there.
After school I went to tutoring and it was kinda fun, I actually understood it cause my teacher was the one that was helping with Science instead of some other teacher that doesn't teach ADV PHY SCI.. so it was a lot better I actually get it.
So, yesturday I went to Stephanie's house to practice for our band test, and I didn't tell my mom or leave her a note or anything.. So, she called my phone and asked if I had a ride home, and bitched at me for not telling her I was leaving.. Then I asked if she could give me a ride home, and she went off on how it was my dad's day and then she shouldn't have to do anything. Well it pisses me off that my dad does everything and she doesn't do anything.. So, I hung up on her and turned my phone off so I wouldn't have to talk to her. As I suspected when I checked my phone 2 hours later she had left messages on there, saying if I didn't call her back in 10 mins she would choke me (not litterally as she explained later on) and another one saying if I didn't call her back in 10 mins I was grounded and unable to do anything for the rest of this week.. I think I'm grounded now.
When I got home, she tried to have this talk with me that was extremley pointless because I am not talking to her, when everything I say she says is wrong of invaild or something like that. She said that I was an angry person and that I don't communicate well with her, duh I don't want to talk to you. If I talk to you, you yell at me. And of course she always has to ask why do you hate me?.. Obvious reasons.. but she just doesn't see it. There was more to the talk but this is getting long.. it ended in her going out again! And me going to bed or what have you.