Oh, that again
Ever have something on your mind and know you can't talk to anyone about it? I am pretty sure is is a not uncommon phenomenom. In this case, I think anyone I could try to talk to would think I am blaming them or telling them would make them feel bad. I don't want that. I would really like to just say something about it. Just not at someone else's expense. No one has any guilt, so why risk them believing they do? There are plenty of logical reasons to stop thinking about this thing, but listing them off doesn't make me feel any better. Anyway, it will go away eventually. I have plenty of good things to look forward to in the coming weeks, and rememberig that, at least, helps take some of the bite out of this one negative. And anyway, there are plenty of reasons why it's not so bad. I just can't seem to make them matter to me.
I am not someone who is into "big" things, for the most part. I like to think that the things I want are simple. It's not because I don't think I could get the "big" things. Actually, I believe I could if I wanted to. I just no I could easily be happy without them. I know I get excited about things that seem dumb, or silly to others. I like being happy about things. I like looking forward to things. So why not take the oppurtunity when it presents itself. "If you can't appreciate what you've got, you'd better get what you can appreciate." That's a (non-exact) quote from My Fair Lady I guess I'm usually willing to give appreciating what I "got" a go. Jobs I don't like, I do. There have always been good points to them if I wanted to look for them.
At the moment, maybe that's what I need to do. Look at what I have that is good, and not worry about what I'm obviously not going to get. Still, sometimes I know exactly what it would take to get what I want. Like with what is on my mind tonight. I say a few things to a few people and I have a 98% chance of getting what I want. But I know that means imposing on, potentially upsetting, or disappointing those people. Why should I get what I want at their expense?
Any way, it's neither important or really worth caring about in the grand scheme of things.
I am not someone who is into "big" things, for the most part. I like to think that the things I want are simple. It's not because I don't think I could get the "big" things. Actually, I believe I could if I wanted to. I just no I could easily be happy without them. I know I get excited about things that seem dumb, or silly to others. I like being happy about things. I like looking forward to things. So why not take the oppurtunity when it presents itself. "If you can't appreciate what you've got, you'd better get what you can appreciate." That's a (non-exact) quote from My Fair Lady I guess I'm usually willing to give appreciating what I "got" a go. Jobs I don't like, I do. There have always been good points to them if I wanted to look for them.
At the moment, maybe that's what I need to do. Look at what I have that is good, and not worry about what I'm obviously not going to get. Still, sometimes I know exactly what it would take to get what I want. Like with what is on my mind tonight. I say a few things to a few people and I have a 98% chance of getting what I want. But I know that means imposing on, potentially upsetting, or disappointing those people. Why should I get what I want at their expense?
Any way, it's neither important or really worth caring about in the grand scheme of things.