Smile like you mean it
Oh man have I been in the oddest of moods lately. Stupid PMS. I think the PMS tells me that its not just the PMS, when I'm pretty sure its just PMS. That probably doesn't make any sense, but not much does at the moment.
There is only one month until I'm packed up and driving home. I can't stand it. As much as I'm getting bored with college life, as soon as I leave it I'll miss it. I'm so terrified that things aren't going to be the same with my friends at home. I know they won't, everything will be different, but I don't know how to deal with it. It constantly nags at the back of my mind. I don't know where I'm living this summer either, which is pretty tough.
I'm turning 19 in a month and three days. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to be another year closer to the 'real world'. I want to graduate college and start over in kindergarden again. I'm not ready for a job and then a husband and then kids and then growing old and then dying. No. No no no. I watched Driving Miss Daisy with Tad the other night and it made me very sad. Like I said, I'm in a strange mood.
I passed my karate belt test though, which is exciting. I get my belt on Thursday. We didn't have class yesterday and I missed it... a lot. It is so de-stressing and fun for me, it pretty much gets me by. Especially this awkard time between midterms and finals that is just tough and frustrating- I need to be able to kick/punch something.
There is only one month until I'm packed up and driving home. I can't stand it. As much as I'm getting bored with college life, as soon as I leave it I'll miss it. I'm so terrified that things aren't going to be the same with my friends at home. I know they won't, everything will be different, but I don't know how to deal with it. It constantly nags at the back of my mind. I don't know where I'm living this summer either, which is pretty tough.
I'm turning 19 in a month and three days. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to be another year closer to the 'real world'. I want to graduate college and start over in kindergarden again. I'm not ready for a job and then a husband and then kids and then growing old and then dying. No. No no no. I watched Driving Miss Daisy with Tad the other night and it made me very sad. Like I said, I'm in a strange mood.
I passed my karate belt test though, which is exciting. I get my belt on Thursday. We didn't have class yesterday and I missed it... a lot. It is so de-stressing and fun for me, it pretty much gets me by. Especially this awkard time between midterms and finals that is just tough and frustrating- I need to be able to kick/punch something.