Life Is So Complicated
*sits on the window sill in my bedroom thinking over the days events staring at a tiny star closing my eyes making a wish*
Its funny how alot of kids wish that they could be in my shoes thinking I have this glamorous life with nothing wrong *gives a short laugh* Well guess what, Jamie Lynn Spears life is far from Barbie perfect!
My parents were always fighting for as long as I can remember, are divorced and still continue to bicker. My brother is too busy with his life in New York and wedding plans to know what's really going on with me. Then Britney's schedule is always hectic. She use to always make time for me, now there's too much going on in her life that she's dealing with to even notice me half the time. I guess that's good where the replacement will come in. *frowns and looks down at the ground below*
Justin well we know that story even though it looks like things are okay between us after our talk last night, there's still that trust thing that needs working on. *grins slightly* Eric was my buddy! We hit it off like that from the start and I trusted him but then all of a sudden he left town without even saying goodbye. Jenna is somewhere and never calls me anymore. Eddie is probably controlling her once again some where and turned her against me. Oh well one day she'll learn.
I guess to make a long story short incase you haven't picked up on this trend that's occurring in my life, everyone that has had importance in my life is slowly being weeded out. *laughs at the term used*
Speaking of "stuff", I never thought I'd say this but Brant Ayala is a really cool dude! Tonight we got to have a long talk about anything and everything. *smiles* It was like he really understood what was going on. He even was telling me waht to stay away from and that I don't need to "fuck" up my life by getting into "shit" that he does. Alot of people think he's trouble, but he's really a good guy with a tough front. *giggles* I know his soft spots!
Even with everything going on tonight I did manage to get my mind off of it for an hour when American Juniors came on at 8pm. *gives a wide grin* As soon as the show was over, Tori called me. She did so great and I know for a fact that she's going to be the first one through to the band! I already started giving her a few pointers on Hollywood life. Taylor did a great job too coming out with her pizzazz which is exactly what she needed to do to prove that she's got what it takes! So here's my prediction for the overall group as of right now: in no specific order.... I think it's going to be an all girl group like a mini "revive" of the Spice Girls!
Tori
Chantal
Jordan
Taylor
Danielle
This Saturday, Tori and Taylor are going to see if they can come visit the All That set so we can hang out. I hope so, I really need someone to pig out on ice cream with right about now! *looks down at my hand noticing that the bandaid needs changing again* I cut my hand on broken glass pretty bad tonight too and its still bleeding so I'm off like a cheetah to change the bandage up. Mama won't be too happy if blood gets all over her laptop. *clicks update and puts the laptop in sleep mode*
Its funny how alot of kids wish that they could be in my shoes thinking I have this glamorous life with nothing wrong *gives a short laugh* Well guess what, Jamie Lynn Spears life is far from Barbie perfect!
My parents were always fighting for as long as I can remember, are divorced and still continue to bicker. My brother is too busy with his life in New York and wedding plans to know what's really going on with me. Then Britney's schedule is always hectic. She use to always make time for me, now there's too much going on in her life that she's dealing with to even notice me half the time. I guess that's good where the replacement will come in. *frowns and looks down at the ground below*
Justin well we know that story even though it looks like things are okay between us after our talk last night, there's still that trust thing that needs working on. *grins slightly* Eric was my buddy! We hit it off like that from the start and I trusted him but then all of a sudden he left town without even saying goodbye. Jenna is somewhere and never calls me anymore. Eddie is probably controlling her once again some where and turned her against me. Oh well one day she'll learn.
I guess to make a long story short incase you haven't picked up on this trend that's occurring in my life, everyone that has had importance in my life is slowly being weeded out. *laughs at the term used*
Speaking of "stuff", I never thought I'd say this but Brant Ayala is a really cool dude! Tonight we got to have a long talk about anything and everything. *smiles* It was like he really understood what was going on. He even was telling me waht to stay away from and that I don't need to "fuck" up my life by getting into "shit" that he does. Alot of people think he's trouble, but he's really a good guy with a tough front. *giggles* I know his soft spots!
Even with everything going on tonight I did manage to get my mind off of it for an hour when American Juniors came on at 8pm. *gives a wide grin* As soon as the show was over, Tori called me. She did so great and I know for a fact that she's going to be the first one through to the band! I already started giving her a few pointers on Hollywood life. Taylor did a great job too coming out with her pizzazz which is exactly what she needed to do to prove that she's got what it takes! So here's my prediction for the overall group as of right now: in no specific order.... I think it's going to be an all girl group like a mini "revive" of the Spice Girls!
Tori
Chantal
Jordan
Taylor
Danielle
This Saturday, Tori and Taylor are going to see if they can come visit the All That set so we can hang out. I hope so, I really need someone to pig out on ice cream with right about now! *looks down at my hand noticing that the bandaid needs changing again* I cut my hand on broken glass pretty bad tonight too and its still bleeding so I'm off like a cheetah to change the bandage up. Mama won't be too happy if blood gets all over her laptop. *clicks update and puts the laptop in sleep mode*