It's been a while...why not rant a little?
It's interesting how those who could have anything they wanted take it for granted. Some even end up throwing their lives away. It's also interesting how some people who grow up dealing with constant bullshit decide that instead of learning from other's mistakes, they will become a product of their environment and have a life long pity party...and not only live in misery themselves, but make it their goal to make life miserable for those around them. Because of the glorious environment that I had the pleasure to grow up in *note sarcasm* I've had to make a conscious effort to ensure I didn't fall into the same pattern that many within my family have. This wonderful environment, I've been realizing, has affected me so much more than I thought I'd allowed it to. I always maintained this attitude that it wasn't a big deal. What I didn't realize was, that not only was I not just letting it go, but I was holding it all inside hoping, I suppose, that maybe one day it would just go away. Now, I find it influencing my decisions and views on various things in my life.
It also makes me appreciate where I am in my life and the people I spend my time with. I may not know what I want to do for a career just yet, but at least I'm trying to figure it out instead of sitting on my ass making nothing of my life. Somehow, I've also gotten up the confidence to step out of the box I've been living in for 21 years and decided to move to Texas. Partly to get away from certain aspects of my life, and partly because I want to live in a new environment, meet new people, and discover opportunities I might not have the chance at here. Some view it as a bad decision on my part, but I figure that if things don't work out the way I hope they would, I always have the option of coming back if that's what I choose to do.
It also makes me appreciate where I am in my life and the people I spend my time with. I may not know what I want to do for a career just yet, but at least I'm trying to figure it out instead of sitting on my ass making nothing of my life. Somehow, I've also gotten up the confidence to step out of the box I've been living in for 21 years and decided to move to Texas. Partly to get away from certain aspects of my life, and partly because I want to live in a new environment, meet new people, and discover opportunities I might not have the chance at here. Some view it as a bad decision on my part, but I figure that if things don't work out the way I hope they would, I always have the option of coming back if that's what I choose to do.