Insomnia
I really need to stop making Live Journal entries late at night/ in the early hours of the morning when I can't sleep. I think parts of my brain are not fully switched on, so I write things that I wouldn't necessarily make public during the day. Now don't get your pants in a twist, there are going to be no shocking pieces of information in this bad boy, I'm merely going to give an update - probably an update for my one and only reader Steff.
Well, me and Live Journal have had a rocky relationship over the past few months. In fact going as far back as a year I've taken issue. It's always been known to me that LJ (like many other blogs) are complete self gratifying pieces of rubbish. Many a profound conclusion I have made about the whole "public self-representational writing online" seeing I've been "researching" it for my self motivated project at university, sorry, art school. I use the word "researching" lightly because I've barely made it half way through a book on blogging. It is kinda interesting but when your primary focus is to create some cool as fuck artwork then research can be a bit of hindrance. In fact the whole project has ground to halt because I had a bit of a mental breakdown over Christmas about research and how much it was confusing me. "An abstract piece of art can have a simple meaning that has been arrived at from breaking down and researching the topic in depth." - that's what my tutor said (to that effect) or that's possibly what I took from the conversation I had with him, I don't really remember, it was about two months ago. So, here we are, writing a blog in an attempt to re-stimulate my interest in the subject and also put my thoughts in the public space. Something interesting that I find about blogging is that it can feel like your being honest in the most public of forums, yet at the same time you have the anonymity of the Internet to protect you from everyone you know reading it. For example: I write on Live Journal that I know a lot my friends can read, yet at the same time it's whether or not they chose to give a fuck and read it. Steff's exemplary grasp of the ability to "read lots of things" means there's usually someone paying attention - don't let me down and not read this Steff. So there we go, a profound opinion on blogging... But where is the research James? You're not allowed to make big statements in my course without justification. At the same time I feel that my personal opinion on blogging is perfectly valid - I've been doing it since 2004. Maybe I will just make a piece of work based on my personal view of the blogosphere? God, this might give people an understanding as to why this project has ground to halt. I feel a complete lack of motivation towards the topic and my course. Did I mention that I've chosen blogging as the topic for my dissertation? Ha! Jesus, when I have my meeting on Thursday I might just let my advisor read my Live Journal. "Yeah, so this is kinda what I'm thinking on the whole subject."
Anyways perhaps I should give a more LJ-esk update on my life in general. Still working for Bank of Scotland, no HBOS plc, wait it's The Lloyds Banking Group now (I do crack myself up sometimes, note: we all realise you've just discovered the strike-through format). Aye, so I'm now working for the same company that I left in August last year for a job at HBOS (RIP). Still got a Fiat Punto that does nothing but be an Italian car all the time. My power steering has an intermittent habit of failing but I don't know how to check the fluid (?) and the booklet says phone Fiat. Jesus. I do have a warranty on the car but I'm afraid to take it back to Arnold Clark because last time I did they charged me £25 to reconnect the pipe for my from window washers as it had frozen and disconnected. So they are complete con-artists who sell you an all singing and dancing £400 piece of paper that's worthless. Although I am going to phone them in the morning and check to see if this fault is covered - I may have to drive the car through the showroom window if it's not (watch this space or BBC News Scotland for an update)."Shit, soz, my power steering failed... Y'know the fault you wouldn't fix under your warranty?" I had almost forgotten how much fun talking shite on Live Journal was, it's nice to just put down whatever you want without worrying that people might not be interested - stop making profound conclusions about blogging, not enough research. I think the lesson is folks, don't buy Italian, they are not very good at making cars. Would be better off in a wheelbarrow with a V8.
This beast has gotten a little out of control, I better stop typing soon but I'm still not tired. I know, before I finish I will rant about my insomnia, it is, of course, the title of this entry. As of late I've had a very fucked up sleeping pattern. I stay up really late, and then have to get up really early (on the seldom occasion) for uni or something. Then, on the same day, I stay awake right through, past my work, and into the early hours of the morning. That then brings us to today, when I slept till 3 in the afternoon! FS. So now, I'm up even later/ earlier because I've had a good 14 hours or something. I think the fact I'm in a total rut with uni doesn't help because I just never do any work now. However! Do not fear, for I have a plan! And the plan is: get up really early tomorrow (8 or 9); phone Arnold Clark and threaten them with legal action if they don't fix my car free of charge; take my car there if they agree and can fit me in; come back; do some work (maybe); go to work ; come home; go to bed circa 11pm. Sounds good. Willnae happen.
I think I'm going to draw this to a close and read about the credit crunch on Wikipedia. You don't know the whole story until you've read the bias opinions of the thousands of user edits that have been vomited all over the page.
Night.
Well, me and Live Journal have had a rocky relationship over the past few months. In fact going as far back as a year I've taken issue. It's always been known to me that LJ (like many other blogs) are complete self gratifying pieces of rubbish. Many a profound conclusion I have made about the whole "public self-representational writing online" seeing I've been "researching" it for my self motivated project at university, sorry, art school. I use the word "researching" lightly because I've barely made it half way through a book on blogging. It is kinda interesting but when your primary focus is to create some cool as fuck artwork then research can be a bit of hindrance. In fact the whole project has ground to halt because I had a bit of a mental breakdown over Christmas about research and how much it was confusing me. "An abstract piece of art can have a simple meaning that has been arrived at from breaking down and researching the topic in depth." - that's what my tutor said (to that effect) or that's possibly what I took from the conversation I had with him, I don't really remember, it was about two months ago. So, here we are, writing a blog in an attempt to re-stimulate my interest in the subject and also put my thoughts in the public space. Something interesting that I find about blogging is that it can feel like your being honest in the most public of forums, yet at the same time you have the anonymity of the Internet to protect you from everyone you know reading it. For example: I write on Live Journal that I know a lot my friends can read, yet at the same time it's whether or not they chose to give a fuck and read it. Steff's exemplary grasp of the ability to "read lots of things" means there's usually someone paying attention - don't let me down and not read this Steff. So there we go, a profound opinion on blogging... But where is the research James? You're not allowed to make big statements in my course without justification. At the same time I feel that my personal opinion on blogging is perfectly valid - I've been doing it since 2004. Maybe I will just make a piece of work based on my personal view of the blogosphere? God, this might give people an understanding as to why this project has ground to halt. I feel a complete lack of motivation towards the topic and my course. Did I mention that I've chosen blogging as the topic for my dissertation? Ha! Jesus, when I have my meeting on Thursday I might just let my advisor read my Live Journal. "Yeah, so this is kinda what I'm thinking on the whole subject."
Anyways perhaps I should give a more LJ-esk update on my life in general. Still working for Bank of Scotland, no HBOS plc, wait it's The Lloyds Banking Group now (I do crack myself up sometimes, note: we all realise you've just discovered the strike-through format). Aye, so I'm now working for the same company that I left in August last year for a job at HBOS (RIP). Still got a Fiat Punto that does nothing but be an Italian car all the time. My power steering has an intermittent habit of failing but I don't know how to check the fluid (?) and the booklet says phone Fiat. Jesus. I do have a warranty on the car but I'm afraid to take it back to Arnold Clark because last time I did they charged me £25 to reconnect the pipe for my from window washers as it had frozen and disconnected. So they are complete con-artists who sell you an all singing and dancing £400 piece of paper that's worthless. Although I am going to phone them in the morning and check to see if this fault is covered - I may have to drive the car through the showroom window if it's not (watch this space or BBC News Scotland for an update)."Shit, soz, my power steering failed... Y'know the fault you wouldn't fix under your warranty?" I had almost forgotten how much fun talking shite on Live Journal was, it's nice to just put down whatever you want without worrying that people might not be interested - stop making profound conclusions about blogging, not enough research. I think the lesson is folks, don't buy Italian, they are not very good at making cars. Would be better off in a wheelbarrow with a V8.
This beast has gotten a little out of control, I better stop typing soon but I'm still not tired. I know, before I finish I will rant about my insomnia, it is, of course, the title of this entry. As of late I've had a very fucked up sleeping pattern. I stay up really late, and then have to get up really early (on the seldom occasion) for uni or something. Then, on the same day, I stay awake right through, past my work, and into the early hours of the morning. That then brings us to today, when I slept till 3 in the afternoon! FS. So now, I'm up even later/ earlier because I've had a good 14 hours or something. I think the fact I'm in a total rut with uni doesn't help because I just never do any work now. However! Do not fear, for I have a plan! And the plan is: get up really early tomorrow (8 or 9); phone Arnold Clark and threaten them with legal action if they don't fix my car free of charge; take my car there if they agree and can fit me in; come back; do some work (maybe); go to work ; come home; go to bed circa 11pm. Sounds good. Willnae happen.
I think I'm going to draw this to a close and read about the credit crunch on Wikipedia. You don't know the whole story until you've read the bias opinions of the thousands of user edits that have been vomited all over the page.
Night.