keep on going
Man im tired..too many late night and early mornings, im constantly late for my work..im just so exhausted in the mornings so an early night 2nite for me i think. I was in amsterdam for 5 ays last week...was quite a visit. Ive been there before but this was the first time id been there sober and with no intention of doing drugs or drink. The girls in holland are stunning..i love how they dress..so unique and sexy. In my eyes they are the perfect women..but then i seem to get this kind of impression with any attractive girl i havent actually spoke to....its amazing what your mind can create. I paid 20 euros to watch a sex show..was rather strange..i was laughing all the way through it as it was very surreal. The hookers in amsterdam are beautiful...some of the most stunning ladies ive ever seen, the fact they seem to sleep with countless men a night to make money is so hard to fathom..i wonder what these girls do when they are not working, do they have relationships..do they speak to their parents...are they doing this out of choice? Im underweight and it makes me feel frail and unhealthy sometimes..im working on putting the pounds back on...the whole last two years my body endured a lot of shit..stress, poor diet, exhaustion...the list goes on..im so thankful i got through it all..people dont realise how hard my life was the last 2 years...i mean there are people out there coping with FAR bigger issues than me..so i shouldnt complain really. Got henry rollin's new book today..its great, i love his humour and his attitude to life. He has made himself a strong person..not just physically but mentally...which does come at a price, he shows his longing for someone to care for..but at teh same time fears it will upset his life and make him weak. I can relate to him greatly...his "face life head on...and kick its ass" attitude is something i really admire..and follow best i can. Right bed time..going to try and be on time for work, job interview on thurs with t mobile..should be interesting..more money..same kinda job.