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Long time no update, ill just say some random shits thats personal and get in off my chest, i dont care if you read it.
Life Recap
Xmas
iPod
17" LCD
Keyboard
$$$
Weird jeans that have like flanel in them
Dirty presents from heather and carey.
Pre-Vaca
Wicked Stressed out
Fear of not graduating
Terribly lonely
Vaca
Driving around listening to techno with max
Drinking, smoking
Playing computer games until the AM
Life
People probably have noticed but im dressing a bit differently now, I'll probably get the poser comments or whatever but im enjoying it. I have something to spend money on now that isnt drugs/alcohol. I dont know what it is but i feel better. I know that i look better, than i ever have atleast. Im not really an attractive kid, so getting compliments on looking good is a new thing for me, im enjoying it. For the first time in a long time i actually have confidence, its weird. So i guess im semi-metro now and i like it. I think i tend to over analyze styles and shit, but the whole skater style thing hit the assembly line and now the world is over populated with skater clones and it pissed me off. It's fucking awesome, when people look at me I dont immediately think " wow those girls are laughing at me" i think "im dressed relatively nice maybe they think im cute" and whether its true or not, i think its good to have a positive outlook on shit as opposed to being negative right away.
Well thats my terribly honest drunk LJ post, im going to try and find some type of party. Have a good night!
P.S. Im attracted to like 6 girls and I think its because my mind is trying to compensate for my loneliness, idk what to do.
Life Recap
Xmas
iPod
17" LCD
Keyboard
$$$
Weird jeans that have like flanel in them
Dirty presents from heather and carey.
Pre-Vaca
Wicked Stressed out
Fear of not graduating
Terribly lonely
Vaca
Driving around listening to techno with max
Drinking, smoking
Playing computer games until the AM
Life
People probably have noticed but im dressing a bit differently now, I'll probably get the poser comments or whatever but im enjoying it. I have something to spend money on now that isnt drugs/alcohol. I dont know what it is but i feel better. I know that i look better, than i ever have atleast. Im not really an attractive kid, so getting compliments on looking good is a new thing for me, im enjoying it. For the first time in a long time i actually have confidence, its weird. So i guess im semi-metro now and i like it. I think i tend to over analyze styles and shit, but the whole skater style thing hit the assembly line and now the world is over populated with skater clones and it pissed me off. It's fucking awesome, when people look at me I dont immediately think " wow those girls are laughing at me" i think "im dressed relatively nice maybe they think im cute" and whether its true or not, i think its good to have a positive outlook on shit as opposed to being negative right away.
Well thats my terribly honest drunk LJ post, im going to try and find some type of party. Have a good night!
P.S. Im attracted to like 6 girls and I think its because my mind is trying to compensate for my loneliness, idk what to do.