Goddamit not again
Had another anxiety attack last night. This one came out of nowhere, especially since I haven't had the pains for close to three weeks. Maybe it was because I was dehydrated, maybe it was because I'd been working 8 hours straight with only a light meal in between, or maybe I've just felt overwhelmed by the prospect of finding work in this economy. Who knows.
I managed to curb it before my heart rate got up to 150BPM like last time. They say the key to overcoming a panic attack is to acknowledge it, remind yourself that no one's ever died from a panic attack, and just let it pass. I was with Glych when it happened, and she saw me through my last attack a few months ago, so that helped literally having a shoulder to cry on.
I thought of a consultation for possibly going on anti-anxiety meds, but my insurance is fucked right now so that's out. Perhaps it's just as well. This is a psychological problem, not a physical one. The EKG and blood test from my last attack showed my heart is completely fine, so going to the emergency room would've been useless last night.
I've been worrying too much about the future and not enough on the present. Presently? I'm fine. I have a roof over my head, food in my fridge, my bills paid for the time being, enough work to get me started out in the industry, and some good chances at networking which I intend to follow up on. I have to learn not to take the entire world on my shoulders and realize that the world can handle itself.
Today I'm staying in and not doing anything. I've either been out and about or I've been working ever since graduation. I need some time for myself.
I managed to curb it before my heart rate got up to 150BPM like last time. They say the key to overcoming a panic attack is to acknowledge it, remind yourself that no one's ever died from a panic attack, and just let it pass. I was with Glych when it happened, and she saw me through my last attack a few months ago, so that helped literally having a shoulder to cry on.
I thought of a consultation for possibly going on anti-anxiety meds, but my insurance is fucked right now so that's out. Perhaps it's just as well. This is a psychological problem, not a physical one. The EKG and blood test from my last attack showed my heart is completely fine, so going to the emergency room would've been useless last night.
I've been worrying too much about the future and not enough on the present. Presently? I'm fine. I have a roof over my head, food in my fridge, my bills paid for the time being, enough work to get me started out in the industry, and some good chances at networking which I intend to follow up on. I have to learn not to take the entire world on my shoulders and realize that the world can handle itself.
Today I'm staying in and not doing anything. I've either been out and about or I've been working ever since graduation. I need some time for myself.