Saved by the Bouyancy of Citrus
Just a quick little update cause I am thinking of it:
My birthday was on Sunday and it was actually pretty shitty. I sat here alone and the whole time I wished I was somewhere else, with other people and just...blah. So I feel that I've given Erie the old college try and all of this to no avail... but at this point, I just gotta deal with it. The day I leave here will be a day worth celebrating... not that I haven't met some pretty wonderful people. Just not many of them, and generally they don't stay that way for long.. I've never met so many two faced people in my life...
However, my buddy Dan really made my birthday sweet... he showed up at my door on Monday with a cake and a huge box of candles (Cause, duh... I'm old!) and sang to me which was so awesome of him. He's a pretty cool lad...
Also, Dharmesh sent me some really pretty flowers. Roses, stargazers, and others.... very pretty smelling too! That was a surprise for sure and things really turned around....
The roommate got me some patchouli perfume and other fragrance... Patchouli is my favorite, so that was pretty sweet of her. For someone who talks so much shit about me behind my back, she sure does some nice things to my face. Eh, none of that... Just gets old knowing someone is so two-faced about you, but that's what happens I suppose....the best way to handle it is to be just as two faced back. Someone loses some weight and suddenly has the right to call you fat, even though you still weigh less than they did before they lost it... Well, I guess Stackers can make you lose some weight, but they don't improve your self esteem very much.
Overall, I've been quite happy. I've learned to introspect rather than discuss things outwardly as much and really it's done wonders for my confidence. Somehow the day that you learn you can only count on yourself is both a great feeling and a bit depressing... bittersweet. But, at least I know that I CAN count on myself... nothing that makes me sad for a day is gonna make me sad for a lifetime... I've also learned the best ways to distinguish true friends from fake people... sometimes, no matter how great they come off to be, they are only out for their own means... which really, there's nothing entirely wrong with. We all need to put ourselves first.... it just helps to have the ability to distinguish when that's the other person's intention.
Oh and school's going well. Roughly 8 more classes and I'll be done with my Bachelor's... so now is the time to start thinking about Graduate School. Yes, folks, it appears that I will never ever be done. It's cool though... stick with what you're good at, as I always say.
I'm off to bed now, for tomorrow, I prepare for my trip to see Emily! That girl rocks some serious gonads... Let's see how many tongues I can taste THIS weekend! ;)
My birthday was on Sunday and it was actually pretty shitty. I sat here alone and the whole time I wished I was somewhere else, with other people and just...blah. So I feel that I've given Erie the old college try and all of this to no avail... but at this point, I just gotta deal with it. The day I leave here will be a day worth celebrating... not that I haven't met some pretty wonderful people. Just not many of them, and generally they don't stay that way for long.. I've never met so many two faced people in my life...
However, my buddy Dan really made my birthday sweet... he showed up at my door on Monday with a cake and a huge box of candles (Cause, duh... I'm old!) and sang to me which was so awesome of him. He's a pretty cool lad...
Also, Dharmesh sent me some really pretty flowers. Roses, stargazers, and others.... very pretty smelling too! That was a surprise for sure and things really turned around....
The roommate got me some patchouli perfume and other fragrance... Patchouli is my favorite, so that was pretty sweet of her. For someone who talks so much shit about me behind my back, she sure does some nice things to my face. Eh, none of that... Just gets old knowing someone is so two-faced about you, but that's what happens I suppose....the best way to handle it is to be just as two faced back. Someone loses some weight and suddenly has the right to call you fat, even though you still weigh less than they did before they lost it... Well, I guess Stackers can make you lose some weight, but they don't improve your self esteem very much.
Overall, I've been quite happy. I've learned to introspect rather than discuss things outwardly as much and really it's done wonders for my confidence. Somehow the day that you learn you can only count on yourself is both a great feeling and a bit depressing... bittersweet. But, at least I know that I CAN count on myself... nothing that makes me sad for a day is gonna make me sad for a lifetime... I've also learned the best ways to distinguish true friends from fake people... sometimes, no matter how great they come off to be, they are only out for their own means... which really, there's nothing entirely wrong with. We all need to put ourselves first.... it just helps to have the ability to distinguish when that's the other person's intention.
Oh and school's going well. Roughly 8 more classes and I'll be done with my Bachelor's... so now is the time to start thinking about Graduate School. Yes, folks, it appears that I will never ever be done. It's cool though... stick with what you're good at, as I always say.
I'm off to bed now, for tomorrow, I prepare for my trip to see Emily! That girl rocks some serious gonads... Let's see how many tongues I can taste THIS weekend! ;)