An age of men later...
I know, I know, its been ages, I've utterly neglected LJ, I haven't posted at all, I haven't visited any of your pages.
The short version is my home wireless internet is fucked, and i can't get online on my laptop.
The only PC we have is my dad's work PC, and so its not really available for my use much of the time.
Nonetheless, I've finally managed to claw myself back online to update you all.
The holidays were busy but enjoyable; I had time off work from the 21st December to the 2nd January.
I was out having fun every day, which really was a breath of fresh air after working since september.
Christmas eve I was out at the Britannia with my friends; I gotta say it was without exception the best Xmas eve EVER! everyone who I could have asked for to be there was there, there was no drama or trouble, we all just got hella drunk and had a blast! :-D Christmas Day and Boxing Day was less eventful, my Grandparents came to stay, so I just stayed at home with my family, opened presents, ate, and slept, which was relaxing and fun.
New Years Eve was mixed, but the bad part I will explain a bit later, so for now... I had a fucking awesome time!
I started out at the Britannia with a couple of people for a drink or two. Then about 8ish I caught a lift up to my friends' Cliff & Ant's house for their house party, where I stayed until 1ish, by which time I was very VERY intoxicated :-D Then I found a sober person to drive me over to a party on the other side of town, where I met up with Kate & Jack. We stayed at that party for a bit, until Jack ran into a little trouble with a friend of Kate and I, who'd had a little (OK, a LOT) too much, and got a little violent. So the three of us went back to Jack's, where we ate a LOT of food, and then proceeded to watch Disney's Sword in the Stone (for what reason I can't remember or comprehend!!!), before passing out. We then spent New Years Day recovering on the sofa, watching Family Guy and Doctor Who (and Mary Poppins at one point?!?!?!). SO all in all, a fantastic New Years too!!!
Now the general update; I'm back at work, which is going well. I'm slowly sinking into the daily drudgery of the job, but am kept going by the knowledge that uni awaits me in 8 months time, and I'm not doomed to work here forever!!!
As tolerable and easy as the work is, it's not half boring, and I look forward to being challenged once more when I get to Bath Spa Uni! I'm also trying to manage my spending into a reasonable rate so I can actually start to save some money for Uni next year (as was my original intention in September!!!). £180 ($360) per week REALLY should be enough money for me to save and still afford a social life, but week after week it just vanishes before I've noticed whats going on!!!
Sarah and I have reached an agreeable level in our friendship. We're not back to how close we were before, and I'm not sure we ever will be, but we're back to where we were before we began to get REALLY close, and I think thats enough. We can hang out and talk without other people there and it's not awkward, its just less close, and I'm OK with that.
New Years Eve (during the afternoon), I finally ended my relationship (of 25 months) with Amy. It was not my choice to end it on that day, but things got out of hand. I had finally decided to end it in january, ironically round about this week, so as to let her enjoy the holidays, but on the 29th she gave me an 8 Page letter listing all the things wrong with our relationship that needed fixing, with an ultimatum of 'we have to talk and sort this out or we can't be together'.
She asked for an answer by New Years Eve. So the choice was obvious, she had essentially given me the perfect opportunity. I went round to her house at about 3ish and broke up with her. It went a lot smoother than I expected. She didn't take it so bad. At first she didn't wanna hear it and wouldn't listen, but after a little while she began to accept it, and after that I sat with her in her room for an hour or two and just let her cry, talking to her and letting it sink in. Then I left about 5.30ish, and went into Guildford. She spent New Years up in Reading with her friends, which is good, rather than being stuck at home, alone, while i was out having fun.
So thats the end of an era. I'm single (properly single) for the first time in 4 years. i've gotta say it feels weird. Very weird. but I'm doing OK. I miss her a lot. for all that I changed and for all that I did and said while with her, I really do love her, and we were great together. At the moment I'm just getting on with work and daily life, waiting for the missing her to pass, so I can start having fun again :-) I've decided to stay single for a long time. At least until the end of university. That's not to say I'm not gonna have flings or date people, but I'm don't want another full on relationship for a while.
She and I have agreed to take it easy for a few weeks and steer clear of each other to allow for getting used to the new situation, but we both want to try and be friends, so that's definitely something to look forward to; all the great aspects of her personality- the fun, the sense of humour and the things we have in common, i can still enjoy those, just as a friend. I'm not holding my hopes too high; it might prove too painful for both of us, but we'll see :-)
but my god, enough about me!
How have all of you been?
I've missed you all!!!
please, comment comment comment, I wanna talk to you guys!