Stand offish goose
Start my new job on the 14th. Yay.. I think. Finish old job this friday. YAY! This i know for sure! My boss told me today he should have made me stay another week cause Craig would be alone all next week. Well Boo F##$%ing Hoo! The amount of time i'm alone in that place is rediculous and i never once got babied for it!!! Just told to handle it and that I was 'incapable' if I brought up concern that there was not enough staff to look after the customer requirements. Shees! AND add to that that due to Henry Walker Eltin going into administration at this point in time there's less work anyway!! It was really weird.. today was the first day in absolutely months that i had time to go chat to other people at work and slack off. I watch all the guys do it every week but today finally i had the chance to. You know what i found out???? No one at my current work is worth talking to. *grins* No great loss leaving that place that's for sure.
I'm still not sleeping. Woke up so many times last night it wasn't funny. Couldn't take a sleeping tab either cause i have a Drug, alcohol and full medical for my new job tomorrow. *sigh* Still.. at least it's before the big day out and not after.. *grins*
Oh.. was funny this morning. My alarm didn't go off and i didn't think much about it. Got up, got dressed for work, had breakfast etc etc, jumped in my car, drove half way to work.. then realised it was Wednesday and i was suppose to start at 7.30. I had thought (for some strange reason, perhaps because it was such a long night) that it was Thursday in which i was starting at 8.00am. hahaha. Had to ring work and tell them my power went out so my alarm didn't go off and that i was on my way. Was such a peaceful morning til i realised i was late. I'm a goose.
Going away to lancelin this weekend. Planning on behaving and just using the time to chill out. Will just watch everyone else get drunk for a change. Class tonight was good... no it wasn't. I was paired up with some disgustingly icky chick who tried to baby me and rush me all at once through all of the things we were doing because she has some experience at this already. I really did feel like hitting her at one point. I just refused to look at her instead. Yeah I know.. I'm pathetic.
Oh.. and in other news... I have internet access at home. About time huh?
I'm in a really strange mood. I'm not big on being around people at the moment. Have quite alot going in my head and right now can't handle being touched. I have a HUGE requirement for personal space. Have had people stand too close to me while i'm sitting in my chair at work and I can't move away from them so I sit there, very stiff, with my movements very... deliberate, feeling very uncomfortable. It's really quite weird. I'm the same with friends at the moment. Just don't want to be hugged or touched much. Which is a little strange for me.. though I do go through these stages. I also don't want to let anyone too close into my heart/mind at the moment. Feeling very fragile and guarded. It's all part of the journey I guess.
Well.. should go try and wind down a little to see if I can sleep... Even if i know i'm not going to sleep well again. *sigh*
I'm still not sleeping. Woke up so many times last night it wasn't funny. Couldn't take a sleeping tab either cause i have a Drug, alcohol and full medical for my new job tomorrow. *sigh* Still.. at least it's before the big day out and not after.. *grins*
Oh.. was funny this morning. My alarm didn't go off and i didn't think much about it. Got up, got dressed for work, had breakfast etc etc, jumped in my car, drove half way to work.. then realised it was Wednesday and i was suppose to start at 7.30. I had thought (for some strange reason, perhaps because it was such a long night) that it was Thursday in which i was starting at 8.00am. hahaha. Had to ring work and tell them my power went out so my alarm didn't go off and that i was on my way. Was such a peaceful morning til i realised i was late. I'm a goose.
Going away to lancelin this weekend. Planning on behaving and just using the time to chill out. Will just watch everyone else get drunk for a change. Class tonight was good... no it wasn't. I was paired up with some disgustingly icky chick who tried to baby me and rush me all at once through all of the things we were doing because she has some experience at this already. I really did feel like hitting her at one point. I just refused to look at her instead. Yeah I know.. I'm pathetic.
Oh.. and in other news... I have internet access at home. About time huh?
I'm in a really strange mood. I'm not big on being around people at the moment. Have quite alot going in my head and right now can't handle being touched. I have a HUGE requirement for personal space. Have had people stand too close to me while i'm sitting in my chair at work and I can't move away from them so I sit there, very stiff, with my movements very... deliberate, feeling very uncomfortable. It's really quite weird. I'm the same with friends at the moment. Just don't want to be hugged or touched much. Which is a little strange for me.. though I do go through these stages. I also don't want to let anyone too close into my heart/mind at the moment. Feeling very fragile and guarded. It's all part of the journey I guess.
Well.. should go try and wind down a little to see if I can sleep... Even if i know i'm not going to sleep well again. *sigh*