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There is so much to be said for compassion. And for not judging others. And for being happy to see our fellow human beings change, evolve, have new experiences and grow. And to not force our own expectations on our fellow human beings but to rather rejoice in their ability to have expectations of themselves, to have the freedom of personal choice, do what's right for them in their lives (even though some of their choices look like such a difficult path or may seem wrong to us), chase what's important to them, and to be in charge of their own lives. And for me to love them just the same. And be proud to know them for their qualities.
It's not important which path my brother decides to take. I will accept it as his choice. It's his life, It's his right. But at least now he's been given the choice to make. That's all I really wanted for him. The same that I was given with Karen and Graham. And a choice I made that I will never regret in a million years. I am so glad I got the chance to make that choice. I have no expectations of him other than he makes the decision that's right for him. If I had expectations of him to want to know me (or at least find out who I am), and he decided he didn't want to know me, then I would feel let down.. But would he have let me down? No. I would have let myself down by having expectations that he makes his decision on what's best for me in my life instead of living his life for himself and deciding what's best for his life.
Either way. Whatever he decides, I'm happy he got the choice.
So many things change. Everything changes. Yet sometimes we seem to try and grasp on to things so they don't. We try and hold onto things with a choking hand in a desperate plea to avoid experiencing something new incase we don't like it or to hold onto something we did like. Well... There is going to be many things we experience in life that we don't like. Whether we accept the change or keep trying to hold on to the now. It's going to happen either way. Life is about experiences. Life (for me) is about being able to look back and say 'Yes. I experienced may things in my time here. I rode the ride of life with open arms and an open heart. I have hurt, I have laughed, I have cried all sorts of tears, I have seen, I have felt, I have touched, I have smelt, I have heard, I have been, I was.' I think of the monetary wealth people try to accumulate and understand. But I don't just want monetary wealth. I want the wealth of experience so, so, so much more.
And considering my age.. I think i'm doing very well in my savings account of experience.
It's not important which path my brother decides to take. I will accept it as his choice. It's his life, It's his right. But at least now he's been given the choice to make. That's all I really wanted for him. The same that I was given with Karen and Graham. And a choice I made that I will never regret in a million years. I am so glad I got the chance to make that choice. I have no expectations of him other than he makes the decision that's right for him. If I had expectations of him to want to know me (or at least find out who I am), and he decided he didn't want to know me, then I would feel let down.. But would he have let me down? No. I would have let myself down by having expectations that he makes his decision on what's best for me in my life instead of living his life for himself and deciding what's best for his life.
Either way. Whatever he decides, I'm happy he got the choice.
So many things change. Everything changes. Yet sometimes we seem to try and grasp on to things so they don't. We try and hold onto things with a choking hand in a desperate plea to avoid experiencing something new incase we don't like it or to hold onto something we did like. Well... There is going to be many things we experience in life that we don't like. Whether we accept the change or keep trying to hold on to the now. It's going to happen either way. Life is about experiences. Life (for me) is about being able to look back and say 'Yes. I experienced may things in my time here. I rode the ride of life with open arms and an open heart. I have hurt, I have laughed, I have cried all sorts of tears, I have seen, I have felt, I have touched, I have smelt, I have heard, I have been, I was.' I think of the monetary wealth people try to accumulate and understand. But I don't just want monetary wealth. I want the wealth of experience so, so, so much more.
And considering my age.. I think i'm doing very well in my savings account of experience.