sigh....
I am fighting every temptation to reconnect my PS2 and start back on Final Fantasy....
It's strange it's like I cut off an arm or something.
I am so confused right now old friend it is not even funny. How am I
supposed to handle this.. I never intended for it to get out even though
I felt the way I felt.
It was my secret, how is it possible to feel a certain way about someone.
I toy daily with the notion that it is purely infatuation but I cannot
help but feel that I am missing something.
Chris came over about a week ago.. all we did was make out. For some reason I have no urge... no drive to do anything period. I don't know what it is. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning it's to a feeling of mourning.... I guess not so much that but a feeling of being incomplete.
For some reason I can't figure this out. I am actually happy alone for once. I am finially complacent with my life now. I am ok with coming home to a quiet place with no one around. There is just something about it...
an odd feeling of accomplishment.
While I still have no regrets over any of the things that I have done I am still dealing with this vast load of remorse that for the life of
me I will never be able to talk to anyone about. I just wish that somewhere out there someone would hear me for once. Literally hear me... I still don't know what I mean by that but maybe for once when I do sit down and think about the incoherence that just occured with this entry I might figure myself out.
I guess I have to admit I am still a sentimental fool...
SOMEWHERE OUT THERE
Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale blue night,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.
Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
Then we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.
(Chorus 1)
And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star,
And when the night will start to sing
A lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the
Same big sky.
(Chorus 2)
Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then, we'll be together,
Somewhere out there, out where dreams, come tru
It's strange it's like I cut off an arm or something.
I am so confused right now old friend it is not even funny. How am I
supposed to handle this.. I never intended for it to get out even though
I felt the way I felt.
It was my secret, how is it possible to feel a certain way about someone.
I toy daily with the notion that it is purely infatuation but I cannot
help but feel that I am missing something.
Chris came over about a week ago.. all we did was make out. For some reason I have no urge... no drive to do anything period. I don't know what it is. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning it's to a feeling of mourning.... I guess not so much that but a feeling of being incomplete.
For some reason I can't figure this out. I am actually happy alone for once. I am finially complacent with my life now. I am ok with coming home to a quiet place with no one around. There is just something about it...
an odd feeling of accomplishment.
While I still have no regrets over any of the things that I have done I am still dealing with this vast load of remorse that for the life of
me I will never be able to talk to anyone about. I just wish that somewhere out there someone would hear me for once. Literally hear me... I still don't know what I mean by that but maybe for once when I do sit down and think about the incoherence that just occured with this entry I might figure myself out.
I guess I have to admit I am still a sentimental fool...
SOMEWHERE OUT THERE
Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale blue night,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.
Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
Then we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.
(Chorus 1)
And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star,
And when the night will start to sing
A lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the
Same big sky.
(Chorus 2)
Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then, we'll be together,
Somewhere out there, out where dreams, come tru