Feb 02, 2008 23:09
“I want to die while you love me, While yet you hold me fair, While laughter lies upon my lips, And lights are in my hair.” - Georgia Douglas Johnson
Och, mi bonnie Claire, iffin only we had more time, but, time is our enemy, it won't be long I'll wake you, I'll kiss yer sweet lips for the last time and send ye through the stones ne'er tae see ye agin.
Fate seems only tae taunt us, first by bringin' ye tae me, makin' me see all the good life has tae give, only tae then snatch it away, barely allowin' us tae taste it. Iffin only I could hae understood sooner wha' was happenin', iffin I could hae seen past mi suspicions, mi own mistrust, iffin I had only been able tae see ye for who ye really were sooner.
E'en now, as I hold ye in my arms, watchin' yer face as ye sleep sae peaceful beside me, I feel mi own selfishness beggin' me tae wake ye. Mi heart is screamin' at me, tellin' me tae run away from here, tellin' me tae abandon those who will on the morn follow me tae their deaths, and instead it strives tae convince me tae take you away, and as much as I would like tae, I jus' canna do it.
I know, as sure as I draw breath, that' I will likely be going tae mi death as I enter the fields of Culloden, but, I canna turn mi back on those who hae placed their faith in me. Ye, better then most hae tae understand why I canna go, why I canna betray mi word, any more then I can deny who I am, and it pains me deeply.
So, I'll take wha' little time I hae left wi ye mi darlin' Sassenach, and when I tire of watchin' you sleep, I'll wake ye so I can take ye once more before fate forces us apart. As hard as it will be, I'll see ye then safely tae the stones, but, then ye'll hae tae forgive me one last selfish request, and tha' is that I nay watch ye take those final steps. It's nay tha' I donnae want tae be there wi ye mi darlin' Claire, but, more tha' I donnae want mi last memory of ye tae be one of ye leavin' me.
Muse: Jamie Fraser
Fandom:Outlander Books by Diana Gabaldon
Words: 367
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