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So yea. I just found out that my sister and her husband have plans for thanksgiving and it would be a major inconvience for me to eat there. Don't get me wrong my sister wants me there. But the time restraints and what nots just don't work out. So you'll find me in my apt on thanksgiving with some turkey flavored ramen. :\ I have had a few offers to eat thanksgiving with some of my friends families but I think that would just make me more upset. I'd like to say the thought of having no family to turn to doesn't upset me but it does. A lot. I guess i've known for a while my family was pretty much done with me. But this is kind of the icing on the cake. And honestly it's hard to sit here and type this. I know that my family still loves me. Thats a given. Especially my dad/stepmom/sister. That side of the family is the best family a person could ask for...they just happen to be on the other side of the state. My mothers side of the family is a joke. My own mother didn't even send me a birthday card. So this kinda personifies how i've been feeling lately. I'm not really worried about it. Shit happens and you can't control it. Time passes and shit won't look so bad. Luckily I have some pretty good friends. Couldn't ask for much more. But right now theres not much that can be said to make me feel better. This is a personal problem that i'll get through.