i hate writing about her.
Message To Her.
Scott Izumida
1/28/05
Don’t wake up anymore.
I can’t take anymore of the pain that you given me.
I can’t let this go on.
So don’t wake up, and stay dead.
In my head, I remember what you said.
It haunts me till this day.
No matter how hard I try to erase you.
You keep coming up inside me.
If you died surprisingly I would be sad.
Because you taught me so much that I needed to learn.
But you also taught me how to hate.
I don’t want this war to go on, because its going to kill us both.
I know you don’t care at all of what I say.
But I’m letting it all out.
I can’t huddle in a corner anymore.
To seek protection.
All I can do it face you, face to face.
No matter how hard it may be.
But I’m afraid that I would kill you at sight.
I wish you already forgot about that event.
That I wished for al long time.
Because I know if you forget, I will also.
So why can’t you just leave it alone, and stop existing in my life.
It feels as if your choking me to death, and I slowly fade away.
But when I wake up, your still there, laughing like usual.
I hate the fact that your still in my head.
After all these years I thought you were dead.
But no I lied to my self, how could I think of such a thing.
In all those song, I wrote to get you out of me.
But all it did was bring you even closer.
You use to be my everything, my life revolved around you.
I loved you, I actually loved you, I don’t know why.
I can’t believe I let my heart go, to someone who doesn’t care.
You made me twist, turn, melt, and burn.
I told myself that this would end soon.
But I guess it will never end.
Until one of us dies.
I know I will be first.
Scott Izumida
1/28/05
Don’t wake up anymore.
I can’t take anymore of the pain that you given me.
I can’t let this go on.
So don’t wake up, and stay dead.
In my head, I remember what you said.
It haunts me till this day.
No matter how hard I try to erase you.
You keep coming up inside me.
If you died surprisingly I would be sad.
Because you taught me so much that I needed to learn.
But you also taught me how to hate.
I don’t want this war to go on, because its going to kill us both.
I know you don’t care at all of what I say.
But I’m letting it all out.
I can’t huddle in a corner anymore.
To seek protection.
All I can do it face you, face to face.
No matter how hard it may be.
But I’m afraid that I would kill you at sight.
I wish you already forgot about that event.
That I wished for al long time.
Because I know if you forget, I will also.
So why can’t you just leave it alone, and stop existing in my life.
It feels as if your choking me to death, and I slowly fade away.
But when I wake up, your still there, laughing like usual.
I hate the fact that your still in my head.
After all these years I thought you were dead.
But no I lied to my self, how could I think of such a thing.
In all those song, I wrote to get you out of me.
But all it did was bring you even closer.
You use to be my everything, my life revolved around you.
I loved you, I actually loved you, I don’t know why.
I can’t believe I let my heart go, to someone who doesn’t care.
You made me twist, turn, melt, and burn.
I told myself that this would end soon.
But I guess it will never end.
Until one of us dies.
I know I will be first.