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Soo... I'm in a bad mood at the moment. I suppose there are a number of reasons for this, most of which I'm realizing as I go along. I'm still sick, which is frustrating because I feel better for the most part, but my chest is really congested and I've got a pretty gross cough. Then, I presented a little paper in front of my Geography class and got no reaction whatsoever from anyone. That's encouraging. Then, in my Special Ed class I go to turn in a 20 page journal and find out that it has to be handed in in a folder. Why is this necessary? The paper is stapled together with a coverpage. There's no need to waste the money, time, and trees on a folder that's doing nothing. So of course I had to scrounge around for a folder, eventually having to use the one that I keep all of my important papers in, so now all of those are flying around in my bag.
As if that weren't bad enough, I then had to realize that I'm in a bad mood. After class I had to go rent Girl, Interrupted for an English paper (no problems there, I like the movie) and decided to get gas while I was out. I hand the guy my credit card and he tells me it's declined. What the fuck? Declined? That can't be. I never use it, right? Wrong. I call and am told that I have a $432 balance and my bill is late, so I can't use the card until I make a payment. I can't figure out how in the hell I have that much on my card, so I look up my statement when I get back to my room, and lo and behold, I sure have spent that much. Mostly on gas and crap for my new room. And I've also got a nice $30 late fee. Lovely. So after calling my mom and bitching that she should have paid the bill (the purpose for having her signature on my checking account) or at least told me about the damn thing. Ugh. She's going to pay the late fee, so that'll help. But I was really looking forward to my money from taxes, but now it'll all be going to pay off the bill I didn't even realize I had. :(
I'm lost lately. I don't know what's up with me. I've given up on the rest of this semester, but not just with school. I've given up on me, too. I've gained weight in the past week or so and I'm really unhappy with myself about it, but I know that all I eat is crap anymore, I just don't care. I don't care what I wear to class anymore, I don't bother trying to look nice like I usually do, and I don't care about my grades. Luckily, I'm doing fine grade-wise. My classes are pretty easy, which is also annoying. I'm taking 2 major English courses, and breezing through them because I'm good at writing and, more importantly, I'm good at writing what professors want to read. But I'm not being challenged, and that irritates me.
I haven't heard anything from Burlington County Times about my job for this summer, and that's pissing me off. I'd like to know if I have the job or not so I know whether or not to keep looking. Don't worry, it's not like I'm in debt or anything. Speaking of the summer, I'm so ready for it. Really what I'm ready for is to be out of this place. I'm so ready that I've already started packing. I've got a suitcase packed with clothes I don't wear often, and a few boxes packed. I've even called my parents to plan a trip for them to come get some stuff since it won't all fit in my car. Then I realized that I still have a week and a half after this week is complete. Ugh... why is it going so slow? I want to be free from this place, from useless work, bitches, small beds, and boredom. I miss Medford.
Alright, I'm done ranting for now, I suppose.
On a positive note, we're watching a movie that should be titled "Brokeback Cuba" in spanish class, and it'll be continued tomorrow. And Ron Jeremy (yea, the fat ex-porn star) is at my school tonight talking about sex, the law, and the industry that made him famous. I'm not sure if it's a positive, but it's definitely strange. And no, I didn't go hear what he had to say.
The End.
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As if that weren't bad enough, I then had to realize that I'm in a bad mood. After class I had to go rent Girl, Interrupted for an English paper (no problems there, I like the movie) and decided to get gas while I was out. I hand the guy my credit card and he tells me it's declined. What the fuck? Declined? That can't be. I never use it, right? Wrong. I call and am told that I have a $432 balance and my bill is late, so I can't use the card until I make a payment. I can't figure out how in the hell I have that much on my card, so I look up my statement when I get back to my room, and lo and behold, I sure have spent that much. Mostly on gas and crap for my new room. And I've also got a nice $30 late fee. Lovely. So after calling my mom and bitching that she should have paid the bill (the purpose for having her signature on my checking account) or at least told me about the damn thing. Ugh. She's going to pay the late fee, so that'll help. But I was really looking forward to my money from taxes, but now it'll all be going to pay off the bill I didn't even realize I had. :(
I'm lost lately. I don't know what's up with me. I've given up on the rest of this semester, but not just with school. I've given up on me, too. I've gained weight in the past week or so and I'm really unhappy with myself about it, but I know that all I eat is crap anymore, I just don't care. I don't care what I wear to class anymore, I don't bother trying to look nice like I usually do, and I don't care about my grades. Luckily, I'm doing fine grade-wise. My classes are pretty easy, which is also annoying. I'm taking 2 major English courses, and breezing through them because I'm good at writing and, more importantly, I'm good at writing what professors want to read. But I'm not being challenged, and that irritates me.
I haven't heard anything from Burlington County Times about my job for this summer, and that's pissing me off. I'd like to know if I have the job or not so I know whether or not to keep looking. Don't worry, it's not like I'm in debt or anything. Speaking of the summer, I'm so ready for it. Really what I'm ready for is to be out of this place. I'm so ready that I've already started packing. I've got a suitcase packed with clothes I don't wear often, and a few boxes packed. I've even called my parents to plan a trip for them to come get some stuff since it won't all fit in my car. Then I realized that I still have a week and a half after this week is complete. Ugh... why is it going so slow? I want to be free from this place, from useless work, bitches, small beds, and boredom. I miss Medford.
Alright, I'm done ranting for now, I suppose.
On a positive note, we're watching a movie that should be titled "Brokeback Cuba" in spanish class, and it'll be continued tomorrow. And Ron Jeremy (yea, the fat ex-porn star) is at my school tonight talking about sex, the law, and the industry that made him famous. I'm not sure if it's a positive, but it's definitely strange. And no, I didn't go hear what he had to say.
The End.
<3