Hanging around
In the hub...typing on a computer even though I have one that works in my room. Got a little tipsy tonight but balanced out now that I'm with the circle again. Amazing that they have that effect on me. Allen wrote the most amazing thing tonight. It was about his feelings towards all of us and why we all found each other. Made me feel more than I've felt in a while, at least not all that bad shit that comsumes me and makes me feel terrible. More of a good feeling that makes me realize that I'm supposed to be exactly where I am right now and there is no reason to doubt what is happening. I've reached the point where I realize that true happiness may not be entirely possible at this point but maybe one day it will find me. And I have no doubt that it will be with these people or that these people will help me find it. They have changed me from what I was a short time ago to what I am today. It may not seem like a drastic change but I feel it on the inside. I don't know...may be the alcohol. Probably not. Having fun...don't want to go home for break. Don't know how to handle that yet.