Does anyone remember there once was an AJ?
Please excuse this. . . if anyone does decide to read it. It is late and Im feeling sorry for myself.
I have always been the person that is always happy. And I used to think that just being happy was all you needed in life. I had great friends, a happy disposition, a pretty level head on my shoulders and a very supportave family. Now, I could be a little crazy, wacky and tons of fun and sometimes a little loud, but that was really all part of who I was (or so I thought.) But as I sit here and think to myself, was it all a lie?
I have never been one of those people who wanted to bother others with their own problems. So I would let my problems go in one ear and out the other whenever anything bothered me. But it seems to be getting harder to do that. And the very few times that I have tried to go to people and just vent to people I end up having to help them with their issues. Now, don't get me wrong to everyone out there who has confined in me, I will always be there for you! But please sometimes I need you too! In addition, when ever I have a petty problem and I wanna vent, people make me feel like it is not worth their time.
GOD DAMNIT!
I KNOW IT IS PETTY!!!
I KNOW IT IS LITTLE AND INSIGNIFICANT!!!
BUT, PLEASE!!!! JUST LISTEN TO ME!!!
I LISTEN TO YOUR FUCKIN PROBLEMS!!!! DON'T I DESERVE THE SAME CUTROSEY!
I cant always be Happy Go-Lucky AJ! Every time and again I need someone to talk to! I am so bottled up inside! I don't ask for much from my friends, and most of the time I feel like I am you rock, but now I need you. Did everyone forget about me? I know you all are busy and times have caused us to grow apart. . . but I am still here.
I guess it really doesn't matter becasue if I had true friends they would have called or imed or shot me an email. No one really knows me anyhow! I guess it just doesn't matter.
I have always been the person that is always happy. And I used to think that just being happy was all you needed in life. I had great friends, a happy disposition, a pretty level head on my shoulders and a very supportave family. Now, I could be a little crazy, wacky and tons of fun and sometimes a little loud, but that was really all part of who I was (or so I thought.) But as I sit here and think to myself, was it all a lie?
I have never been one of those people who wanted to bother others with their own problems. So I would let my problems go in one ear and out the other whenever anything bothered me. But it seems to be getting harder to do that. And the very few times that I have tried to go to people and just vent to people I end up having to help them with their issues. Now, don't get me wrong to everyone out there who has confined in me, I will always be there for you! But please sometimes I need you too! In addition, when ever I have a petty problem and I wanna vent, people make me feel like it is not worth their time.
GOD DAMNIT!
I KNOW IT IS PETTY!!!
I KNOW IT IS LITTLE AND INSIGNIFICANT!!!
BUT, PLEASE!!!! JUST LISTEN TO ME!!!
I LISTEN TO YOUR FUCKIN PROBLEMS!!!! DON'T I DESERVE THE SAME CUTROSEY!
I cant always be Happy Go-Lucky AJ! Every time and again I need someone to talk to! I am so bottled up inside! I don't ask for much from my friends, and most of the time I feel like I am you rock, but now I need you. Did everyone forget about me? I know you all are busy and times have caused us to grow apart. . . but I am still here.
I guess it really doesn't matter becasue if I had true friends they would have called or imed or shot me an email. No one really knows me anyhow! I guess it just doesn't matter.