feeling sorry for my self. . . hey it's been one of those days
(Sigh)
So I went to Alaska this summer and had the time of my life! I met so many amazing people and they came from all over it was just awesome. I can't even begin to describe how I grew as a person. It really makes you look at your life, and then say "fuck it all! This is really me!" Im not saying that I have never been anyone other then myself, it is just when you are at home, you are never really yourself (now believe me on this). At home you are so&so's daughter, or so&so's sibling or whatnot. That whole experience really oppened my eyes.
Ok so that is not what I am feeling sorry about. When I was there it felt like my friends from home and I forked away from eachother. Yes, I know that is to be expected but, why do I feel like I am the only one in the group that feels this way.
I feel alienated with everyone. The one person that I didn't feel that way about is in Florida this winter. Jessica is taking a semester away from school and is working in Key Largo this winter. And i miss her so much she was one of my best friends.
I keep trying to see my old friends but the atmosphere is just weird. Like I went out to dinner one night with a few of the girls and the whole time they teased me. Maybe I never noticed it but it really irritated me. Everytime i would try to say something they turned it into a joke.
I don't know. I just wish I had someone.
I have always been a happy person but I feel like I am falling into depression. Maybe all I need is a good cry and a big bowl of chocolate ice cream.
So I went to Alaska this summer and had the time of my life! I met so many amazing people and they came from all over it was just awesome. I can't even begin to describe how I grew as a person. It really makes you look at your life, and then say "fuck it all! This is really me!" Im not saying that I have never been anyone other then myself, it is just when you are at home, you are never really yourself (now believe me on this). At home you are so&so's daughter, or so&so's sibling or whatnot. That whole experience really oppened my eyes.
Ok so that is not what I am feeling sorry about. When I was there it felt like my friends from home and I forked away from eachother. Yes, I know that is to be expected but, why do I feel like I am the only one in the group that feels this way.
I feel alienated with everyone. The one person that I didn't feel that way about is in Florida this winter. Jessica is taking a semester away from school and is working in Key Largo this winter. And i miss her so much she was one of my best friends.
I keep trying to see my old friends but the atmosphere is just weird. Like I went out to dinner one night with a few of the girls and the whole time they teased me. Maybe I never noticed it but it really irritated me. Everytime i would try to say something they turned it into a joke.
I don't know. I just wish I had someone.
I have always been a happy person but I feel like I am falling into depression. Maybe all I need is a good cry and a big bowl of chocolate ice cream.