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im back at school. sitting in the library cuz i dont have my next class till 2. its weird being back. i looked at what i need in order to graduate. i think i have at least one more year to do it. which means i wont move for three years. but anyways i was walking to find one of my classes cuz i have all this time and who do i see? ill give you a few guesses........... scott one of anthony's friends. i saw him and just stared straight down the hall. why can't i get away. its hard enough trying to forget him and now you have to add the fact that i could see scott everyday. BOO HISS!! to that one. and i get to see the other buddy at the alley tonight. what luck i have. i took the picture of anthony and i out of the frame. now i need another pic to put in it.
oh i was talking to chip last night. it was nice. i was leaving to go talk to inge about some info on certain people and i got up the nerve to give him my number. i got offline before he could respond back and i wasnt sure if he got it so i went online on my phone and asked and he said he got it and that he would def. call me. whos excited?? i think that would be me.
onto another hard subject. how exciting can one girls life be you might be asking yourself. well ill tell ya this one is pretty crazy/exciting. too many boys and so much fun. so back to the story i got distracted from. there is this boy i have know for about six years. we have been really close almost brother sister. now i know i shouldnt be talking about this because im really not supppose to know but hey i guessed this so i can i guess. but yeah we have been friends and never has the thought come across his mind that he would like to go out with me until now. only because he has been with my ex best friend i guess you can say for quiet some time now. but now they are not together anymore and we have been chillin like we normally do. i have been just thinking that this is the friendship that we always have but recently i have realized that he might want something else. hes always massaging me and texting me a lot. im just scared to break his heart because we have been friends for way too long. i dont want to mess that up. i got some info saying that he is asking around to find out what he should do. he knows about chip and now that i have conformation that he likes me i feel really bad saying that im going to move to rhode island and always talking about other guys. but i guess i shouldnt feel bad because a)i really didnt know and b) im still not supposeto know. why is this so complicated? my brain starts to hurt everytime i try to think about situations like this. i mean i really dont want to ruin what we have. i have never looked at him the way he is thinking of me right now. this is crazy. what do i do? ......i know what i should do and that would be telling him straight that it will never happen but its easier said then done.everyone knows that. now that i think about this i think its my fault. i told him to get over her and now hes moved onto me. grr i hate when i do that. i didnt mean for him to move onto me. he should go for the other girl he has been trying to go for. what am i going to do? as you noticed i didnt say his name because like i said before im not suppose to know about it even though i already had a feeling.
so now that that story is done onto a different one. ive been thinking about my debt situation. i think im gonna hold off on paying my bill for school until almost next semester. yep and im gonna hold onto the rest of my settlement money. well im gonna pay back chrissy and dee and buy my school books but after that its all mine. im really trying to save all my money. lora and i are saving all of our tips. we are putting it all into soda cups. she has one and i have one. everynight after we are done working we take our tips and put them in our cups. now we cant get the money out because we taped the cups closed. one big step for jess in saving her money. and if fish pulls through ill have $1000 (its a long story on why i get $1000) that would be exciting. and someone i will not say who because i cant is saving me money. so i will have money and it will be ok. i can survive. im very happy to report that. but what im actually going to do is take the left over settlement money and put it into my savings. then i know i have the money and it will be ok. and lora is helping me save. but it is just a tad bit hard to save when these stupid gas prices keep going up. but maybe if it is possible save at least fifty bucks every check into the savings account. im very excited about this whole plan thing. i do need to work it out just a little bit more.
to sum everything up for the most part my life is good. nothing really to complain about but if there is dont worry ill be updating.
oh i was talking to chip last night. it was nice. i was leaving to go talk to inge about some info on certain people and i got up the nerve to give him my number. i got offline before he could respond back and i wasnt sure if he got it so i went online on my phone and asked and he said he got it and that he would def. call me. whos excited?? i think that would be me.
onto another hard subject. how exciting can one girls life be you might be asking yourself. well ill tell ya this one is pretty crazy/exciting. too many boys and so much fun. so back to the story i got distracted from. there is this boy i have know for about six years. we have been really close almost brother sister. now i know i shouldnt be talking about this because im really not supppose to know but hey i guessed this so i can i guess. but yeah we have been friends and never has the thought come across his mind that he would like to go out with me until now. only because he has been with my ex best friend i guess you can say for quiet some time now. but now they are not together anymore and we have been chillin like we normally do. i have been just thinking that this is the friendship that we always have but recently i have realized that he might want something else. hes always massaging me and texting me a lot. im just scared to break his heart because we have been friends for way too long. i dont want to mess that up. i got some info saying that he is asking around to find out what he should do. he knows about chip and now that i have conformation that he likes me i feel really bad saying that im going to move to rhode island and always talking about other guys. but i guess i shouldnt feel bad because a)i really didnt know and b) im still not supposeto know. why is this so complicated? my brain starts to hurt everytime i try to think about situations like this. i mean i really dont want to ruin what we have. i have never looked at him the way he is thinking of me right now. this is crazy. what do i do? ......i know what i should do and that would be telling him straight that it will never happen but its easier said then done.everyone knows that. now that i think about this i think its my fault. i told him to get over her and now hes moved onto me. grr i hate when i do that. i didnt mean for him to move onto me. he should go for the other girl he has been trying to go for. what am i going to do? as you noticed i didnt say his name because like i said before im not suppose to know about it even though i already had a feeling.
so now that that story is done onto a different one. ive been thinking about my debt situation. i think im gonna hold off on paying my bill for school until almost next semester. yep and im gonna hold onto the rest of my settlement money. well im gonna pay back chrissy and dee and buy my school books but after that its all mine. im really trying to save all my money. lora and i are saving all of our tips. we are putting it all into soda cups. she has one and i have one. everynight after we are done working we take our tips and put them in our cups. now we cant get the money out because we taped the cups closed. one big step for jess in saving her money. and if fish pulls through ill have $1000 (its a long story on why i get $1000) that would be exciting. and someone i will not say who because i cant is saving me money. so i will have money and it will be ok. i can survive. im very happy to report that. but what im actually going to do is take the left over settlement money and put it into my savings. then i know i have the money and it will be ok. and lora is helping me save. but it is just a tad bit hard to save when these stupid gas prices keep going up. but maybe if it is possible save at least fifty bucks every check into the savings account. im very excited about this whole plan thing. i do need to work it out just a little bit more.
to sum everything up for the most part my life is good. nothing really to complain about but if there is dont worry ill be updating.