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It's really hard knowing that someone is right in front of your face and you know that they won't talk to you. I want to talk to him, but I know that by not talking it will help me get over it. I just don't understand what happened. Why does this always happen? Why can't I find the guy for me? Sometimes I do wonder what it would be like if I lived in Rhode Island. How different would it be. Maybe that's what I need. A completely different scene. Get rid of all the bad guys and maybe find the right one.
To be honest I have had a thing for "Chip" or now shall I say Eric. He is a really sweet guy. Everytime I go down to Rhode Island I hope to see him. When I don't I get a little sad. He is just so awesome. Rachel and Erik say that it would be nice to date him. I would love to go out with him, but I really don't think it is fair at this point and time.
Going down there to see everyone was nice. We had the best time. We bowled. Rachel and I kicked everyones butts. Eric was giving me massages and it was nice. It seemed right and I was angry to know that. I was loyal to Anthony that night and if I knew that he was just going to go away then I would have been more into the whole thing. I reallyam just gonna continue talking with Eric. Man it's hard to call him Eric. I'm so used to calling him Chip. I was introed to him as Chip. I don't know.
Looking back at this entry I realize that I really wasn't in love with Anthony as much as I thought I was. Oh well. His loss not mine.
To be honest I have had a thing for "Chip" or now shall I say Eric. He is a really sweet guy. Everytime I go down to Rhode Island I hope to see him. When I don't I get a little sad. He is just so awesome. Rachel and Erik say that it would be nice to date him. I would love to go out with him, but I really don't think it is fair at this point and time.
Going down there to see everyone was nice. We had the best time. We bowled. Rachel and I kicked everyones butts. Eric was giving me massages and it was nice. It seemed right and I was angry to know that. I was loyal to Anthony that night and if I knew that he was just going to go away then I would have been more into the whole thing. I reallyam just gonna continue talking with Eric. Man it's hard to call him Eric. I'm so used to calling him Chip. I was introed to him as Chip. I don't know.
Looking back at this entry I realize that I really wasn't in love with Anthony as much as I thought I was. Oh well. His loss not mine.