i am glad
i wondered if i should call you and tell you of stacys death, but i decided not to. there arent plans foer that type of thing preinstalled and i didnt want to fall into you because of grief. i am glad you dont read my journal because i am feeling like running to you might be an option if you knew and i could lay my head on your shoulder. i am glad i let that nasty message and glad i am prepairing my jornal for a new muse. i will be more pleased by happy entries. dont think i dont love you, just imagine what its like loving you and there you will find my reasons. someday stability may return. perhaps on that day i will regret all of my reactions. 24 hours and you have not called. i am glad. it hurts me, but less than seeing you in these times.