I miss you, lola!
I am consumed by leaps & bounds of emotions everytime I think of you. I am morose.. I am grateful you have transcended to another world.. I am relieved you do not feel the physical pain & the emotional struggle anymore. I am glad a big chunk of myself is you. My humor, my optimism, my strength, my faults, my temper, all of these were you. You can just imagine how great this loss is, now that you have left me. At times, I feel abandoned, why am I not able to feel your presence anymore.... Not even in my dreams. There are days I think your memory of me had vanished with your death. I am the Joy who you know in the physical world, nothing more, nothing less.
I was driving home from school the day you died & I heard the song "What I did for Love".. I knew it was a song for both of us. Both of us sacrificed a lot to make it through each day. Can't regret, what we both did for love...Selfless love.. that was what you gave.
Kiss today goodbye,
The sweetness and the sorrow.
Wish me luck, the same to you,
But I can't regret what I did for love
What I did for love.
Look, my eyes are dry.
The gift was ours to borrow.
It's as if we always knew,
And I won't forget what I did for love,
What I did for love.
Gone,
Love is never gone.
As we travel on,
Love's what we'll remember.
Kiss today goodbye,
And point me toward tomorrow.
We did what we had to do.
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for love.