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Mar 14, 2005 23:09

so i finaly worked up the nerve to call amanda.. for about 3 months i just could not break my self.. afrade of feeling hurt from her.. or somethign along those line... so i did finaly call her tongith.. for a while i was so happy just to hear her voice.. im so discontent it is sickaning... i just FUCK i dont know.. its gonna be the hardest thing i might ever have to do.. but i just need to get over her.. or soemthign.. my stomach feels twisted right now .. there is so many thing i wanna say to her.. but i never will..

im not gonna lie im crying right now.. and i cant even type y.. if any thing in the prior paragraph makes sence.. awesome i dont even care.. the worst part of it all.. is that no matter what i do .. who i meat.. or any thing.. i will probaly alwyes be madly inlove with this girl.. the girl..the one that her and i shared a crazy romance.. one that seems too good to be true.. well it was.. cause now.. im gonna fall asleep and hear her voice in my head.. be at peace.. wake up and once again realize that.. well that it was all too good to be true.. and theres no such things as happy endings..

if any thng in any of that made sence at all .. cool
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