Camp Fire
job hunting sucks. no one likes to do it. but in two and a half weeks i will be here. for good. at least for a couple months. so its kinda nerve racking that i don't know how i am spending it, i know i won't be doing what i really wanted to: working in a park.
on the other hand, coming home will have its good points. first of all, no more school. that might be it though. i don't want to leave everyone at MSU, although at points it feels like i have lost control of my life. but whos to say i had it in the first place. i don't know......i don't want to get into it. sometimes you can just get tired; tired of living how you are, tired of what you are doing, tired of feeling like you have endless amounts of things and ideas coming at you and you don't know what to do. i need a vacation......from my problems. haha, yeah bob wiley style. i heart you bob/bill murray. ok that was random.
i also wish i had spent less time being with some people and more being with others. well maybe thats not true. i guess what i mean is that i wish i just had more time in general. but thats life.
i just came back from hanging out in the back of my house. i threw on Yankee Hotel Foxtrot and started a walk. i went to see the horses but i guess they were sleeping, which is weird cause they usually will still come up to the fence. anyways i lit something on fire in the fire pit and ended up making a big fire and just sitting by it for a long time. it was the first of the year! i forgot how much i like doing that. wilco took care of me tonight, they always do. but im tired now.
oh that second part of that journal a little bit ago is still coming, can't forget that.
oh.......and my parents really enjoyed the story from two entries ago. and later, when their friends arrived for dinner tonight, they also enjoyed it very well. its all fun and games until you get drag quewnd.
good night.
on the other hand, coming home will have its good points. first of all, no more school. that might be it though. i don't want to leave everyone at MSU, although at points it feels like i have lost control of my life. but whos to say i had it in the first place. i don't know......i don't want to get into it. sometimes you can just get tired; tired of living how you are, tired of what you are doing, tired of feeling like you have endless amounts of things and ideas coming at you and you don't know what to do. i need a vacation......from my problems. haha, yeah bob wiley style. i heart you bob/bill murray. ok that was random.
i also wish i had spent less time being with some people and more being with others. well maybe thats not true. i guess what i mean is that i wish i just had more time in general. but thats life.
i just came back from hanging out in the back of my house. i threw on Yankee Hotel Foxtrot and started a walk. i went to see the horses but i guess they were sleeping, which is weird cause they usually will still come up to the fence. anyways i lit something on fire in the fire pit and ended up making a big fire and just sitting by it for a long time. it was the first of the year! i forgot how much i like doing that. wilco took care of me tonight, they always do. but im tired now.
oh that second part of that journal a little bit ago is still coming, can't forget that.
oh.......and my parents really enjoyed the story from two entries ago. and later, when their friends arrived for dinner tonight, they also enjoyed it very well. its all fun and games until you get drag quewnd.
good night.