life as we know it...
well a lot has happened lately...
lost a lot of friends, moved into an apartment, lost Zac for being stupid.
Basically my life has been full of hysteria and hectics but I'm surviving. Been really depressed about the whole Zac thing. That kid was my whole life and now that he's not in it I dunno how to function. I'm learning to stabalize myself but it hasn't been easy. Getting off that mountain has really helped tbough.
I won't be starting school anytime soon if even at all. Money is not coming easily. I have been here for almost 3 months and yet... still no job. I hate it and I'm Miserable about it but surviving. I need a job but it's been very difficult and highly stresful. I've applied a lot but nothing yet. If you're a praying person please pray that something will come up...please.
I am starting to wonder bout some things. Mainly about myself and what I am doing with my life. I keep thinking something bigger is yet to come but I'm so afraid I'm gonna miss it. Like I won't find that one thing I need. I know something big is supposed to happen in my life I am just very afraid I'll miss out on it. Everyday gets harder and my stress keeps getting worse. I wake up many mornings puking from stress. And no it isn't morning sickness. I took a test. I'm fine. It's just a lot of stress.
Well it's late and I need to check on my chicken. Yes I am making chicken late at night. My roomate gets home late so dinner is later but it's all good. alrighty then well I'm outty here.
<3 Jacquie
lost a lot of friends, moved into an apartment, lost Zac for being stupid.
Basically my life has been full of hysteria and hectics but I'm surviving. Been really depressed about the whole Zac thing. That kid was my whole life and now that he's not in it I dunno how to function. I'm learning to stabalize myself but it hasn't been easy. Getting off that mountain has really helped tbough.
I won't be starting school anytime soon if even at all. Money is not coming easily. I have been here for almost 3 months and yet... still no job. I hate it and I'm Miserable about it but surviving. I need a job but it's been very difficult and highly stresful. I've applied a lot but nothing yet. If you're a praying person please pray that something will come up...please.
I am starting to wonder bout some things. Mainly about myself and what I am doing with my life. I keep thinking something bigger is yet to come but I'm so afraid I'm gonna miss it. Like I won't find that one thing I need. I know something big is supposed to happen in my life I am just very afraid I'll miss out on it. Everyday gets harder and my stress keeps getting worse. I wake up many mornings puking from stress. And no it isn't morning sickness. I took a test. I'm fine. It's just a lot of stress.
Well it's late and I need to check on my chicken. Yes I am making chicken late at night. My roomate gets home late so dinner is later but it's all good. alrighty then well I'm outty here.
<3 Jacquie