The Last Letter 3/3 part II
Chapter 3
Part II
"I understand, appa... I know... I know... will do, appa... Bye~” Jaejoong looked down at his phone and smiled.
"Aish... This is so appa... It's not the first time that they leave me home alone...” he shook his head slightly.
"Well, I have to do what I've been told then.” he closed all windows and sealed all doors before moving upstairs to do the same thing.
"Eh who's that?” he looked down from his parents' bedroom balcony and spotted a man half sitting and lying on the bench.
"What an idiot. It's freezing cold out there. Is he trying to be a hero?” he scoffed.
"Wait...” he looked harder when he saw the man slowly sliding down from the seat.
"Oh no.” he rushed out of his parents' room and ran downstairs quickly.
"Yunho!” he ran out the door to catch the man before falling.
"J...Jae~” Yunho looked up at Jaejoong and gave out a faint smile.
"Idiot, how long have you been sitting here?” Jaejoong looked at Yunho's pale lips. He looked shocked to see Yunho's red eyes.
"I...don't know...” Yunho said softly while giving out a dry cough.
“Why didn't you call me?” Jaejoong took off his jacket and covered Yunho's trembling body.
“I...I didn't mean to bother you. I was in a deep thought. Before I knew it, my feet brought me here.” Yunho was telling only half of the truth. He kept walking from home. He did not know how he ended up in front of Jaejoong's house.
"Oh gosh, your hands are freezing. Let's go inside.” Jaejoong helped Yunho to get up.
It was the first time for Jaejoong to see Yunho in depressing condition. His puffy eyes showed that he had been crying for a long time. There must be something bothering him but it was not the right time to ask. Jaejoong took Yunho inside the house and led him to his bedroom. He pushed Yunho against the wall before stripping his cold and soaked clothes off his body. Yunho let Jaejoong did whatever he wanted with his weak body. Right now all he wanted was to be with someone he felt warm and secured. That someone had to be only Jaejoong.
"Come here.” Jaejoong laid naked Yunho down on his bed. He ran to the bathroom to throw away Yunho's wet clothes and came back with a bowl of warm water. Soaking small towel in the warm water, he squeezed it and brought it to cover Yunho's cold feet. He kept massaging his feet until he was sure that Yunho's feet were warm enough. Then he ran back to the bathroom and brought another towel along. He soaked the new towel and wiped down Yunho's pale face and body.
"Thank you...” Yunho said softly while looking at Jaejoong concentrating on his task.
"Don't do anything crazy like this again. You hear me? Call me when you need help.” Jaejoong looked into Yunho's eyes. He wanted to make sure that Yunho could hear him.
"Ok.” Yunho nodded his head and continued to stare at the busy man. Everytime he was with Jaejoong, he felt so relax and secured. He never felt this way with anyone before.
"I'm so tired....” he spoke softly. After a long walk and a hard cry, he finally reached his limit.
"Yah, put on some clothes before sleeping.” Jaejoong brought out his pajamas for Yunho. He tried to force Yunho into the clothes but he didn't cooperate.
"I can't get up.” Yunho was too weak and tired to move his muscle. He pulled up the blanket to cover his face.
"Yah, I'm not gonna sleep next to a naked man all night. Put something on.” Jaejoong kept bugging Yunho to put on some clothes. He pulled down the blanket and realized that he was talking to himself as he saw Yunho drifted off to sleep.
"Aish...” he scratched his head. Checking that Yunho was nicely tugged in a warm blanket, he put wet towels back in the bowl and left it in the bathroom.
Thinking of preparing something warm for Yunho, he went down to the kitchen. He looked around and found the camomile tea. He smiled happily because camomile tea would help Yunho to feel warm and get a deeper sleep. Then he remembered hearing Yunho have a dry cough as well. He climbed up the top shelf to look for honey. Honey mixed with warm lemon juice was also a choice for Yunho's dry throat. Looking at his choices, he couldn't decide which one was the best. After spending more than 20 minutes, he ended up making both drinks for Yunho to choose.
"Yunho, I make you warm drinks.” Jaejoong used his foot to open the door.
“What's wrong?” He rushed to the bedside quickly when spotting Yunho's body jerking up.
"Go away... I don't need you... I don't need any of you...” Yunho mumbled while turning his head left and right.
"Asshole...” Jaejoong whacked the sick man's head harshly as he thought that Yunho was chasing him away. When he looked closely, he realized that Yunho was talking to someone else.
"I hate you... You are the worse parents... the worse...” Yunho started to sob in his sleep.
"Yunho...” Jaejoong met Yunho's parents a few times when he went to his house. He could sense there was something strange about Yunho's family. After putting all puzzle pieces together, he finally understood why Yunho behaved the way he was.
“You are safe now...” He moved close to Yunho and patted his head gently as to comfort the man.
"Jaejoong-ah, Jaejoong-ah.... Don't hate me... Don't leave me...” Yunho reached out for someone while crying in his sleep.
"I'm sorry Jaejoong-ah... I'm sorry...”
"Yunho...” Jaejoong brought down Yunho's hands and held them tightly while looking at him sadly. It was heartbreaking to see Yunho this fragile.
"Don't hate me, Jaejoong-ah...”
"Surprisingly....I don't hate you anymore....” Jaejoong smiled gently at the sleep talking man.
"Don't leave me Jaejoong-ah... I need you... I love you...” Yunho's confession startled Jaejoong.
"I love you, Jaejoong-ah... Don't push me away...” after a few minutes of repeating the same sentences, he was finally quiet down.
"I don't intend to, Yunho...” Jaejoong held up Yunho's hand.
"And I think I love you too...” he let out his tear while rubbing Yunho's cold hand on his cheek.
"But Heejin.... Heejin is my cousin... and I can't hurt her....” he slowly moved up and lying down next to Yunho.
"I love you but I can't hurt her...” he cried. Looking at trembling Yunho, he stripped himself off his clothes before sliding inside the same blanket.
"All I can do is to keep you safe and warm...tonight...” he whispered softly as he held Yunho close to his naked body and he intended to keep him warm through out the night.
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"Oppa... I thought of getting my operation done in Japan.” Heejin looked at her cousin who was busy preparing picnic set for her.
"Really?? That's great!” Jaejoong was excited. Finally his cousin agreed to have the operation instead of hopelessly waiting for it in Korea. He left what he was doing and gave her a tight hug.
"But before I do that... I will ask Yunho oppa to take me....” Heejin noticed Jaejoong was jerking from her declaration.
"What are you saying, Heejin?” Jaejoong let go of her. He pretended to clear his throat as he tried to hide his shaking voice. He did not expect his cousin to be so bold.
"I love him. I want to sleep with him.” Heejin boldly said.
"Heejin... What about your condi-”
"Oppa, I'm not that weak. But if having sex with Yunho oppa would kill me, then I'm ready to die.” Heejin declared bravely.
"Heejin!” Jaejoong did not know how to stop his stubborn cousin. He knew she didn't mean what she said.
"Oppa, he used to do it all the time. Doing it again with me won't make any different. Who knows? He might like it and decides to have sex only with me.” Heejin was surprised with herself how daring she could be.
"Yunho is not a plaything. You can't treat him like that.” Jaejoong was frustrated. He was not sure why exactly but he did not like to hear Heejin speaking of Yunho that way. Since the day he found out about Yunho's true feeling, he was very careful with words he used with Yunho. He did not want to hurt him more than he already was.
"Why do you care so much about him? He likes me, doesn't he? So what is so wrong if he will sleep with a person he likes....”
"That... Nothing is wrong.” Jaejoong was speechless. The mistake he had caused, hit him hard once again. He lied to his cousin and to himself. Now he was paying the price.
'She is right... I have no right to stop her... or him.' Only sex that kept Yunho and him connected. Nothing more. Realizing the truth, he was upset. He was jealous.
“I will let Yunho oppa decide. But I'm sure that he will agree...because he loves me...” Heejin picked up her picnic basket, giving Jaejoong goodbye kiss and leaving without saying another word to him.
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"Where are you going?” Jaejoong tugged Yunho's sleeve.
"I can't stay.” Yunho said softly as he was getting up from Jaejoong's bed.
"You just got here few minutes ago and you haven't-” Jaejoong paused as he couldn't quite say.
"I... I'm going out with Heejin soon.” Yunho did not look at Jaejoong but walked to the door.
"Now?” Jaejoong wanted to ask where but he did not have a courage to do so.
"Yes.” Yunho looked down at his watch.
"I have to go. Bye...” he let go of Jaejoong's hand from his shirt and walked out of the room without looking back at him.
Jaejoong had a bad feeling about this. After a talk with Heejin, Yunho hardly came to his house. Instead, he spent more time with his cousin. He did not want to think that Heejin stopped Yunho from coming to see him. Thinking of what Heejin told him last week, he jumped up from the bed and ran after Yunho.
"Yunho, wait!” Jaejoong reached for Yunho just in time before he stepped out of his house.
"Do you need something?”
"Where are you planing to go?” Curiousity got the best out of him.
"Why do you want to know?” Yunho looked at Jaejoong questioningly. Jaejoong was acting weird today.
"Because.... just tell me.”
"She wants to watch movie, have lunch.... and go to a love hotel.” Yunho answered softly but clear enough for Jaejoong to catch the whole thing.
"Hotel?” Jaejoong did not expect Yunho to say it easily.
"Yes.”
"Why are you...”
"Heejin wanted to do it.” Yunho stated the truth.
"But she's still young. I don't want her to regret it later.” Jaejoong found a stupid excuse to convince Yunho but he got the wrong move.
"What are you trying to say? Am I not good enough for her?” Yunho's voice was raised slightly. He wanted to think that Jaejoong was jealous of her cousin. That was why he tried to find any silly excuse, but he couldn't remember when Jaejoong had showed any interest in him.
"That's not-”
"It's none of your business. I'm dating her, not you. So I will do whatever she wants.” Stupid and reluctant Jaejoong really annoyed him.
"Yunho oppa, why are you so slow?” Heejin showed up behind Yunho.
"Oh oppa, you are here too.” she gave out a quick smile at her cousin.
"Heejin...” Jaejoong's body tensed up as soon as he spotted her.
"Let's go Yunho oppa. Otherwise we will be late for the movie.” Heejin hooked her arm on Yunho's
"Ah I'm so excited today.” she couldn't control her excitement.
"Heejin-ah, please think again.” Jaejoong pledged.
"Oppa, I've made up my mind.” Heejin answered bluntly.
"Yunho, please... Don't do it.” Jaejoong did not know anymore if he was worried about his cousin or afraid of Yunho belonging to someone else.
"Why? Give me one good reason.” Yunho wanted to know why Jaejoong was so concern about the matter when he was the one suggesting him to date her.
"If you don't have any, then better let us go.”
"Yunho.” Jaejoong tightened his grip on Yunho's shirt.
"That is enough, oppa! Why are you trying to stop us?” Heejin was getting impatient. Her stupid cousin needed a little push.
"You are just his FRIEND. What right do you have to stop him from having sex with me?” she stared at her cousin's eyes while removing his hand of Yunho.
"I know. I know what I am to him.” Jaejoong looked at his cousin.
"But I still can't let go.”
"Why?”
"Cause... I can't say but... It's not the right time.” it was frustrating for Jaejoong but he could not hurt his cousin.
"Don't fuck with me, Jae.” Yunho intensely looked at him.
"This is what you want, isn't it? Well, this is a chance for you to get rid of me since you hate me so much.” he spoke closely to Jaejoong's ear.
"Enough oppa! If you don't have a courage to say what's in your mind then let go of him. He is mine!!” Heejin was furious. She hated to see her cousin like this. She stubbornly pushed him away.
"Right time or not, I am the one who will decide. Moreover, Yunho oppa agreed to do it with me. Get over it.” she walked away from Jaejoong.
"Oppa, let's go.”
"Yunho.” Jaejoong begged while grasping Yunho's hand.
"Despite of all things that happened to me... I don't hate you...” Jaejoong's words caught Yunho off guard. He didn't expect to hear it from Jaejoong.
"I don't hate you...” all he could say.
"Yun oppa...” Heejin handed out her hand, waiting for Yunho to catch it.
"...” Yunho turned to Jaejoong, looking deep into his eyes as if he was trying to find some missing answer. Sensing nothing but fear and depression, he slowly removed Jaejoong's hand and walked away.
"Yunho...” pool of hot liquid slowly ran down Jaejoong's face. The sight of Yunho walking away and holding hand with his cousin gave him more pain than he thought. Yunho chose his cousin and he couldn't do a thing about it. He should have realized his feeling and just let the man know sooner before it was too late. He had no energy left in his body. Finding something to support his body, he slowly leaned on it while witnessing Yunho's back slowly disappeared from his sight.
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"Heejin-ah...” Yunho tightened his grip on Heejin's hand.
"He's an idiot, isn't he?” Heejin chuckled softly.
"But still...he is the sweetest guy I have ever known my entire life...” she looked at Yunho.
"And I love him.” Yunho finally let it out. He did not want to hurt Heejin but loosing Jaejoong was never his option.
"I know.” Heejin smiled bitterly.
"You do?” Yunho was surprised to hear.
"I'm sick but not blind, you know?” Heejin asked rolling her eyes on the man who was blinking.
"The way your eyes followed my oppa everywhere he goes... That's not the way friend looks at another friend.” she commented.
'And I even saw you unconsciously declared your love for my idiot oppa and him confessing to you.' she mentally talked to him.
"I'm sorry for everything.”
"Don't be. I am also taking advantage of your weakness. I knew you can't refuse my request because of Jae oppa.” Heejin bluntly said.
“But it's enough. I can't be selfish anymore.”
“Heejin-ah.”
“He's done so much for me. And I haven't seen him cry over anyone besides me....” Heejin thought of her cousin. It was the first time she saw him crying so much.
"Yeah, I made him cry a lot.” Yunho was talking about different kind of cry but he didn't need to explain to Heejin.
"So... Could I....” he stared back at Heejin.
"Go ahead. Your mind is not around here anyway...” Heejin shooed Yunho away.
"Thank you Heejin-ah, for your understanding.” Yunho was about to give her a kiss on the cheek but got stopped by her hand.
"Don't you tempt me.” Heejin pushed Yunho's face away harshly. She chuckled when seeing Yunho apologized.
“I'm not gonna drag him to Japan so you'd better take care of him.”
“I will.” Yunho smiled warmly at her before letting his feet following his heart.
"When I'm well enough, I will find a man who is nicer, sexier and cooler...” Heejin looked up at the sky and tried to stop her tears.
"Someone's better than your Yunho.” that was the right word, Yunho was never hers.
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Jaejoong had been sitting at the same spot for the past 10 minutes. He tried to gain his energy back but it seemed useless. He gave up and scooted himself to the edge of the bench before leaning his head on the tree near by.
"Yah, stop crying. Your swollen face is showing. ” a soft sarcastic but caring voice was heard from his right hand side.
"You.” Jaejoong jerked up when he saw Yunho sitting down at the other end of the bench. Unable to produce word, he sat quietly.
"You said... You don't hate me...” after minutes of sitting in silence, Yunho decided to communicate.
"Not anymore.” Jaejoong answered softly.
"I've done nothing good but being cruel to you.” Yunho looked down at the hard ground. Thinking of all things he had done to Jaejoong, he felt ashamed.
"I know... but I can't bring myself to hate you.” Jaejoong said, wiping away his tears.
"Why?” Yunho looked at the man next to him, hoping to hear the answer he was searching for.
"Why do you want to know? You chose Heejin, right?” Jaejoong was annoyed with the image of Yunho walking away from him.
"I've come back, haven't I?” Yunho could feel that the old Jaejoong was slowly coming back. Starring closely, he saw the famous pout forming on Jaejoong's face as he turned away.
"Are you gonna tell me?” he moved his face closer to Jaejoong.
"Yah, don't force me.” Jaejoong shouted annoyingly.
"Fine.” Yunho gave out a heavy sigh before moving back to the other end. Looking everywhere but Jaejoong, he crossed his legs and started to hum his favorite tune.
"Where have you been for the whole week?” Jaejoong was still curios.
"Why do you want to know?” Yunho imitated what Jaejoong did earlier.
"Just answer, will you?” Jaejoong pouted.
"I was busy moving in with my grandparents.” Yunho said softly.
"Oh,” Jaejoong suddenly remembered the night Yunho unconsciously confessed to him. He was really in trouble with his parents.
"The new place is pretty far from here so I can't come as often as I used to...even if I want to...”
"I love you.”
"What?” Yunho paused. He was not sure that he heard it right.
"What... You said you want to hear the reason, right? Here I give you one.” Jaejoong was blushing as he tried to find words to cover his embarrassment.
"Can you say it again? I didn't quite catch it.” Yunho's heart was jumping crazily.
"I love you.” Jaejoong took another deep breath after saying it for the second time.
"Are you serious?” Yunho slid himself to sit next to Jaejoong, holding his hands and starring straight in his eyes.
"You're not lying, aren't you?”
"I'm not you. I don't tell a lie.” Jaejoong pouted unhappily, but he did not pull his hands back.
"When did I lie to you?” Yunho was pretty sure that he never lied to Jaejoong.
"…..” Jaejoong couldn't think of any. In fact, he was the one who told lies. He lied to his cousin, to Yunho, and to himself.
"Jaejoong-ah...” Yunho lifted Jaejoong's chin up gently.
"I can't undo the past. But I want you to know that I never meant to hurt you.”
"I know." Jaejoong patted Yunho's hand.
"Jae... Will you be mad if I told you that I didn't regret what I did? Because of the mistake I made, I've met you... and fallen in love with you...” Yunho didn't know how long he had been holding his breath. He knew what he said, might upset Jaejoong. Several minutes passed, he could breathe again when he felt Jaejoong's head on his shoulder.
"It would be a lie if I said that I wasn't upset.” Jaejoong secretly smiled when he felt Yunho's arm snaking around to hold his waist.
"I felt humiliated and destroyed. I never wished to see your face again.” he felt Yunho's grip becoming tighter.
"But I guess someone up there didn't agree with me. So he sent you back to bother me, torture me... and make me trip...” he chuckled when seeing Yunho's pouting face.
"Falling for me is just a tripping?” Yunho pulled Jaejoong onto his lap and tickled him.
"But now I fall for real... I'm falling into the hole you've dug up... It's quite deep, you know? Ah, stop~” Jaejoong couldn't stop laughing. Yunho tickled him with no mercy.
"Good to know. From now, I will never let you get out of my trap.” Yunho stopped tickling and held him close to his chess.
"I don't plan to get out either.” Jaejoong smiled sweetly before his plum lips being attacked.
"Wait, should I send you a love letter too? After all I'm the only who-” his sentence was stopped by Yunho's finger.
"The last letter would do.... cause I got you to be mine~” Yunho ran the back of his hand on Jaejoong's cheek before gradually leaning down to capture a pair of sweet lips that exclusively belonged to him.
- End -
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Hey guys... It's still unnie again... How do you like the ending... I know some of you are craving for angst... To tell you the truth, I'm not very good at it cause I'm a cheesy and fluffy Yunjae..
So sorry if some of you are disappointed with the happy ending... LOL
Anyways, Let me know please... After spending hours, trying to post and adjusting them... Comments would be nice to keep me running...haha
Miss you all~